Sunday, December 21, 2008
it wasnt my fault. 11:56 PM
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Labels: please... it wasnt my fault. 8:29 AM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
it wasnt my fault. 1:17 AM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
it wasnt my fault. 2:18 AM
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
it wasnt my fault. 8:38 AM
it wasnt my fault. 8:26 AM
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
it wasnt my fault. 10:04 PM
day by day...time by time...passes quickly without useven noticing it...same goes for us...everything changing soo quickly...how could i just deny thatwe faces lots of arguement...im just a sissy boy...who always run around from the arguement...without solving it...or issit i found it waste of time?the arguements are not necessary...its not a must for us to face...but why arent we avoiding it?but yet...we are allowing it to pass throughbetween our relationship...theres no reason for us to be fighting...if thats the case...it means every 2 days..we will fight once...its had been repeating itself...issit true when people said that..history will repeat itself?im starting to believe in it...somehow...somewhere deep in me...i really dont want...i wont explain my reason nomore...because it wont do abit...u might think im selfish...or maybe im...just like ur lil bro said...im selfish...i wont care abit for anybody...even for you...seeking for my own happiness is all i do...i didnt think for a second for you...how could i?deadmeat...i change alot...but i dont seem to realise it at all...i getting back to my oldself...its always you who gets the heartache...not me...im the caused of it...your tears will soon b worthless...once you realised it...that im aint a guy for you...this would be my last sorry...its heavy for me to say this but...i just want you to be happy...with who you want to be...i dont want to be the heartache of your...baby...maybe calling you by the name baby...would be my last too...baby...please seek for your own happiness...i want baby to be happy...go..go find someone that is zillion times better than me...please...i beg you...i dont want to hurt you nomore...u had felt too much...enough is enough...please find someone better than me...i dont want to see you cry again...go and search the dream MR..that you been searching all these while...let us be the memories for the learning journey...of finding the one you really love...please...please baby...*cries*
Oh no!whos buhday?its Baby's buhday!!she turned 15..oh GOSH..ure getting OLD!!hehe XDim sorry i lied...i lied to you...that i cant celebrate wif you..during you buhday...i know it hurts...when i repeat it...however...i got a good intention right baby?13th DEC...poop out from nowhere...and you were shock to see me...youre CUTE my dear...soo baby...ARE YOU READY TO GO OUT?hehe...im soo the naughty...Its your day...just say where you want to go..i will bring you there...tell me what you want...i shall buy it for you...far east is our first destination?went shopping abit...brought TEEs for baby...soo marina square is our second pit-stop?we ate mac...brought alot...end up...wasting it all up...GOSH dear...we been wasting money on food everytime?diao...ate till our stomach is about to explode...dhen proceed to our third stop...which is plaze singapura...thought of catching a movie there...but unfortunately...the place is full of ANTS!!damn you ANTS!!couldnt you give us a peace?since is baby's buhday?be understanding please?instead..headed to cathay...we catch a movie there...and babygirl was lucky...she able to catch twilight on her buhday...soo the lucky!!KEN to the TOT!!the show is excellent...what makes the show is absolutely US...those TEMPTATION...makes it feel SENSATION...only US know..WEEHEE....after it ends...we thought of shopping again...but sadly...the shops are closing...shit you!and so..baby having stomach upset...maybe bcoz..theres too much air in it?soo grab a bite at long john...and so...as for normal..we waste our food...and if im not wrong...we are the last customer to leave?im sorry to keep you all waiting...baby had to go west coast park...family gathering there...soo i tag along...as her mum said that...they will be sending me home...soo i stayed...took cab to go there...but instead we went EAST coast...wth?waste my freaking money!!!i could get lost...the driver took us to a WEIRD route...i was like looking at the surrounding...thinking...where the hell are we...and there goes my baby...sleeping on my lap..like i said...shes having stomach upset...i put her to sleep...dont you guys ever see her...when shes sleeping...because...shes just too SWEET to b seen by you!got that?and this is my rule...u broke that rule...and my FIST will come after you...soo stayed at west coast park till 2am i guess?with baby and family...and soon..i was sent home...thanks for the ride...and baby...i hope you had a great time today...the whole day u were with me...iloveyou dearest...
its already been days...its proven...we are not the same...everything between us...dont feel right...i had never...expected you to be like this...for the past 6 months since i met you...you had never been like this...you had been soo sweet..like a candy...and somehow...now..u sound different...i just dont get it..i realised...i havent know the real you i guess...i thought...i had known you...but now...i didnt...you dont seems to be happy anymore...when we both on the phone...you sound moody...angry...you not the happy girl i once knew...i must say...i had failed my task...i had always wanted you to be happy...but now...you often get mad...im felt that...your love for me...is fading...issit true?im aint in a good condition now...everything seems different...unlike before...u tend to shoot words at me...everything the words you said...makes me broke down...my hands were shivering..when you shoot words at me..i cant even be strong like i used too...you had weaken me to the core...im aint a guy...that could satisfy you or..makes you happy...look deep in your heart...find the answer to it...are your feelings faded towards me?the strong magnetic bonds..that holds us together are soon gona break...just tell me if you really...and really meant it...that you really wanna be wif me..in future to come...theres still many fishes in the sea...much more better then me...im aint a guy meant for you...i can see through it all...im still cherishing this moment before..its gone...i shall give you all the time in the world you need...to find the answer...if you feelings is really for me...if theres someone better then me..do tell me...because that would makes me realise...im aint the same league as you..and aint a guy for you...its kinda hard for me to be posting this...when im crying...its all i can say...tell me the truth and only truth with no regrets...call me when you have the answer to your heart...
okey...enough of the heartache i face...time will soon heal the hole in my heart...hopefully it will...or maybe it cant...just a cure i needed from you baby...well...i was informed yesterday...im posted to harbourfront!F SHYT!walau ehk...i hate it...later need to go faiz firstdhen go harbourfront...soo i guess...i will be home late everyday...omg!!idontlike it...okey go bYE...
Why must it be like this baby?tell me why?i had imagined yesterday to a sweet day for us...oh...it turn bad instead?why?you might say im spying on you...not trusting you...or etc...but if really im spying on you...i would already followed you to sentose...w/o you knowing...not trusting?if i didnt...i wont even let you go...but yet...im happy that you go...and have fun...yesterday...just a short talk face to face...will change everything....just a short talk...everything would be fine...i was expecting you...to keep asking me why...i stayed at vivo until u finished eating...i thought you will ask me why...but instead you scold me...i went out of home at 4.15pmand reach vivo at 5pm...went all the way just for you...b4 that...i went BPP..brought things for you...luckily...i didnt brought that thing along...or else i will be like a stupid dog...with no direction to go...haizz...i brought a small gif you..that thing...is something to put at ure hp...there is a small RED ROSE..which indicate LOVE between us...in the glass...there a phraseI LOVE YOU...i told myself when i at vivo...that by today i need to gif that thing...to you...but i wasnt strong enough...i wasnt strong enuff...to outstand the hurting impact...that tym...i really broke down...when u call me and scold me..asking me to go home...im crying...infront of the F crowds...met you at busstop...still...im not strong enuff...to see you into the eyes...why?why aint i strong?why must i always be weak?i hate it!!ARGH HATE!
never i imagined it will be this way...my plan failed today...thought of surprising you at VIVO...but it turns back a round i guess...instead u were angry...yes i lied from the vary begining...from the msg...i lied that i had to meet boss for meeting...but i didnt...what i meant by BOSS...is YOU...i went all the way to VIVO...to meet to and spend time together there...but its all gone to waste...4hours of crafting a paper ROSE..which i put my heart n soul to it...were gone to waste too...i thought of giving you when i met youat vivo...but i didnt get the chance...yesterday night...told my mum n my dearest bro...that i will be off...and go home late coz im wif ida...i must thank my mum...iloveyou mother...u gave me 2 tickets...but sorry...i didnt make use of it...thx bro...for giving me 100bucks...for me to spend together wif ida...but didnt spend a single cent of it...soo i will return it all later...how sad?i went to ask all these for us...but what i get?i went soo far to VIVO...to surprise you...tapi ini i dpt?u once told me...lets go watch movie right?i thought of catching a movie..after u finished wif you friends...thats why i waited for you...after u ate...but i wanna expecting that..we could have dinner together...but same...i didnt get the chance...i brought a small thing...for you...also didnt gave you...but after u gave me a call..after u eaten...u scold me?ask me to go home?i got a damn F heartache...i just dont know how to describe it dear...i plans is all ruined...can you believe it?i cant believe it either...the thoughts of spending time wif you...were crushed...like a glass thrown onto the stone...im sad...please...i hate today..