Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Labels: i love you

it wasnt my fault. 10:51 PM

Monday, July 28, 2008

Labels: heart pain sakit hati

it wasnt my fault. 8:10 PM

Friday, July 25, 2008

well

this feeling of mine

has been bothering me!

and i hate it!

questions asked

but was replyed..

its nthg...

its not important...

the trust i get now..

is totally different

from the past..

when we are still

BESTFRIEND..

but i do believe..

u still trust me..

but however...

this trust has yet

to built up..

with rank you wear..

with trust u hold..

with trust..

respect will be earned...

during the time

when we are bestie..

i couldnt recall a single time

that u had ever hide something

away from me..

yet now..

im getting it...

the secrets u holds..

kept me wondering

the whole tym..

wondering whats in ure mind..

not even a hint u gave..

so..

nthg i could think of..

everytime u told me about your past..

abt some1 who misses your touch...

i had gotten weaker and weaker

i tried to push myself to be strong..

but however i cant..

every steps i took..

i kept falling...

theres aint a railing for me

to hold on too...

it seems...

im just weak...

im aint like any other guyz..

who could control their emotion..

im different..

im really different...

i can be strong at tyms..

i can be weak too...

knowing that there

many more out there..

who are trying to get you..

i know that..

but i just dont know how to say...

im in lost of words..

its hard for me to say...

but i can say...

i sad..

this strength of mine

is really weak...

its all about trust...

giving all the trust

without leaving any secrets

UNTOLD...

i really need you to believe me..

i really need that..

amireallytheguyuresearchingfor?

theonethatlovestohurtyourheartalways..

i will end this today...

by leaving a phrase..

i love you..

is what i will do..

idaris

Labels: i dont know?

it wasnt my fault. 9:45 PM

Thursday, July 24, 2008

i just got back from riding...

its HELL LOTS OF FUN!!

firstly...

i met kiki..

dhen we proceed to TC

dhen from there...

we slack while waiting for the rest to turn up..

dhen we go aiman block...

take hym..

coz he didnt go night classes..

soo he tagged along wif us..

dhen...we went to limbang...

very the keco keco!

dhen reach there...

all sweaty!

like pig seh..

so the hot hot!

the component of bike tkder...

dhen go bukit gombak...

while going to the bike shop...

kiki and kecik was GONE!!

dhen i called kiki...

dier gi pasar mlm kakak dier la...

oh good!

atleast i go something to eat...

i m starve to death seh..

whole day nvr eat...

hungry hungry!

dhen my fwen go buy

the component...

dhen proceed to

KEDAI PAKCIK!!!

oh pakcik...

im sorry lar kn...

my bike always troubled you..

wif my bike..you always took

mininum 1hr30mins...

oh...sorry lar...

guessed what!

i got my front break back!

dhen want to go back..

it was around 9+

and its raining heavily..

but we all just cycle

kate TEAM CYCLONE MAHX!

singing all the way!

JIWANGSSZZ!!

but too bad...

i shed some tears too...

i did cried...

for sure...

i did cried...

singing the songs..

made my tears drop...

i think of you...

thank god its raining...

no1 saw me

or notice me

that i cried...

dhen...go cycle at zhenghua park...

to TC...

slack there...

oh i m shivering the whole tym...

soo the cool...

its not about the weather...

but i didnt get bby warmth...

till now..

i still cant forgive myself..

i really wish i could

replay the tym...

i shudnt msg..

i really shudnt...

i do regret...

surely..

i did...

i just cant stop thinking

i just cant..

and i dont know why...

but really...

this time round...

i hurt you badly...

and for that...

theres no way for me

to be able to forgive myself...

im always the one hurting you...

to think back...

and wondering to myself...

did ii ever satisfy ure heart?

coz i have been hurting you..

hurting now and then...

is what im good at...

i just dont know...

im always the bad guy...

am ii really a guy ure looking for?

a guy who keep hurting your heart...

im aint a human...

yet im a monster...

thats for sure...

for now...

i do miss you...

i really miss you...

but for sure...

im nrt gona forgive myself for this...

and am ii

really a type of guy ure looking for?

the one who keep hurting your heart...

the one who had shattered ure heart

into small pieces...

i wont forgive myself

it wasnt my fault. 10:25 PM

when boy meets girl..

they exchange numbers..

after sometime..

boy declares his profound love for her..

he tells her that shes the right one...

his true love and soulmate..

shes the one that he wants to be with

for the rest of his life..

and no other girl could make him leave her..

even if they dont end up together..

he would not get involved in

another relationship..

along the way...

misunderstanding occured

but whos to blame?

its just a roller-coaster ride

that they have to go through..

feeling of love and pain can

be pretty intense..

some will take longer to recover

from the pain..

while some trying to cope

with heartache positively...

for everysteps...

we learn something important..

a experience gained teaches

each one to be wiser

and stronger..

when ii love someone...

i do get intense...

but when i got that someone..

nothing else matters dhen her..

like what i say..

along the way of love...

arguement and misunderstanding do happen

which i didnt even realised it..

with not realising it..

i hurt someone...

today was terribly my fault...

if just a message...

this cold war of us..

grew bigger..

which never we experience...

and i dont want to..

when you told me...

its a heart pain...

i do feel it too...

i never imagined that this could happen...

but please...

listen to me...

ever since the day..

we had an history of US..

i had sealed my love just for you..

i did contact with other girls..

but all of them are my old friends...

we had nothing in common...

thats why..me and them are friends..

the day i found you...

is the day that i found my reason to live..

im in a confuse state...

but please i had no intention of

making you angry...

making you heart-pain...

i had always treasured you as my

first and most important priority..

and thats true for sure...

now i realised...

every single move i did..

was all a mistake...

if only theres a time machine...

that could replay back the time...

i should not have msg her...

for now...all i could say...

im heart-pain too...

looking ure angry n sad..

for now...

theres aint any girls that i would msg..

that for sure...

i wan to stop this endless war we facing...

but wif this war of us...

i am to be blamed...

and im sorry for that...

relationship wif you..

is full of sincerity..

i really love you...

i had said many times..

i wont go to any1 else

heart...

bside you my dear bby...

you are the only treasured thing

that i had ever wanted..

and i found it now...

please forgive me...

i wont play wif you heart..

never i will...

i love you

i really do...

idaris

Labels: im sorry...

it wasnt my fault. 4:11 PM

Monday, July 21, 2008

hellu

morning all

oh i didnt go school today

im sick!

kept vommiting

i hate thys!

i was soo looking forward

to go school today..

but too bad...

my body wont allow me to..

went doctor yesterday night..

recieve a day m/c

better rest at home..

rather dhen it bcome

bad to worse..

today bby wore kebaye..

while color..

but i cant see..

she told me to wear baju kurung

today..

if can white too...

i tot of wearing too..

together wif you..

but..

im sick lar bby..

im sorry...

now..

im at home...

doing nuthink..

trying to find something

that occupy my tym...

but im just bored...

if only im at school...

i could be wif bby...

i miss bby soo much...

i hope i could get to meet

bby after dismissal...

all i could say that..

iloveyou bby..

i really do...

iDaRis

Labels: Shes mine

it wasnt my fault. 9:59 AM

Thursday, July 17, 2008

its been quite some time..

it feels soo short..

yet soo long..

a day..

feels like a month..

a month..

feels like a year..

ever since you enter my heart..

i had this strange feelings..

this feeling of love..

to love you this strong..

is what i will always do..

everywhere i go..

you will always pictured in my mind..

somehow..

it feels like nothing could erase

you from my heart..

and nothing could erase

my love for you..

day by day pass..

my love for you keeps growing..

every night..

i prayed..

i prayed that the day

of me and you will forever be together..

every night..

i sat alone in my bed..

thinking of you..

thinking of the time when we are together..

every kisses wif you..

i wish i could stop the time..

to be kisses by you..

its heavenly sweet..

every hugs given by you..

i felt this feelin of coziness..

i had never felt this feeling

of real love before..

i wan this feeling to last..

with you around..

i felt strong..

you give me confort

you give me care

you give me love

its you that i long to be with..

i couldnt believe that you

would accept me to enter your life..

i never expected to meet anyone like you..

in this small world of mine..

i meet many other people..

but out of this many people..

i chosen you..

my heart is meant for you..

nothing could measure

my love for you..

but theres only a thing that

could measure..

its your heart..

ure one special person..

i really want to be wif you..

through thick and thin..

i shall be with you..

until the last breathe of mine..

i will love you..

are you willing to live a life with me?

will you?

IDARIS

Labels: i love you

it wasnt my fault. 10:14 PM

heloo

hellu

hie

hi

helu

o.O

too much greetings

soo about today...

okey lar...

but tired the whole day...

eyes are heavy..

and my body is cool!

shivering you know..

didnt get much tym..

to spent wif bby...

i got oral after school..

soo haiz..

she went home

w/o me..

sorry bby...

english oral is OKEY..

the reading part is abit

cock up at first..

as in the first sentence...

scared you know..

dhen after i cooled down...

ouh it turned out great!!

the picture is okey...

and conversation...

is LOVED!

teacher were smiling

and praising me!

hoo hoo hoo..

the teacher love it when i say...

beauty only captures the attention..

but personality captures the heart..

hehe..

but its true!

and 5pm+

went to bangkit...

repair bicycle...

and around 9.35pm dhen

reach back home...

and im dirty!!!

my palm is BLACK!

stupid OIL!!!

hahax..

soo till now...

bubbye!

ily bby..

IDARIS

Labels: Shes mine

it wasnt my fault. 9:59 PM

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

oh yest night...

she slept early...

maybe its my fault...

i didnt called her earlier...

i guessed i took more

dhen 5mins to call her..

haizz...

didnt get to talk to her..

that long...

but its okey...

i dun wan to talk abt it...

soo..

today..

let me see...

morning went to school

with her...

i was soo sleepy...

during morning assembly...

i slept for awhile...

even during lessons...

i forced myself to stay awake...

and know what?!?

i could sleep while sitting..

hahx...

style ehk?

yea i know..

kinda weird too...

but for sure... today...

i didnt learn a single thing...

i cant concentrate...

i slept ard 4am..

yesterday...

i meant just now morning..

woke up at 6.10am..

NOT ENOUGH REST!!!

today..

i theres nt much to say..

and i dont know why..

oh..baby not picking up

calls..

shes asleep already...

oh how sad....

i miss you like hell lotZ now..

i guessed i will end it here..

babygirl...

i miss you..

i love you...

idaris ((:

Labels: i miss yuh

it wasnt my fault. 11:19 PM

Monday, July 14, 2008

soo this is my injured leg..

how bad can it be?

but i didnt feel any pain

when i got this cut..

but im alright now..

still okey..

not yet disable..

hahax..

AriSidA

idAris

Labels: Shes mine

it wasnt my fault. 4:48 PM

Sunday, July 13, 2008

oh abt yest...

saturday..

i didnt went to school..

friends kept calling me

and forcing me to come..

im sorry my friends..

i did told you guyz

i will be coming..

but in the end..

i didnt came...

SORRY..

yesterday i had a 30mins nap..

from 8.30am to 9am..

woke up due the calling(S)

then..

i stay at home...

doing nuthink...

boring you know!

dhen a friend of mine

ADAM JO!

came to my house...

he wan to use my comp..

for geography homework..

rajin ehk ko?

me myself havent done it yet...

later i will do ((:

call aiman..

call hairul..

ask them to lepak..

dhen around 5pm dhen..

went out to fajar..

meet them..

dhen cycle.. ((:

went into forest..

wow!

its dark!

we are like daredevil right?

i know we are daredevil...

soo dont need to say..

hahx...

at night...

lepak at senja grand...

and thats already around 10.45pm..

soo i decided to go home..

coz later...

i scared baby angry wif me..

for coming home late...

otw home..

went pass her block..

and called her up...

oh i get to see you face!

your cutie cutie face!

hehe...im happy you know..

seeing you..

its like OMG!

then i go home..

reach home..

give bby a call..

dhen i go my things...

coz shes buzy at the momment..

just wait for her miss call..

dhen i call her again...

((:

like wow you know yesterday...

u kekek or what?

laugh laugh...

and guessed what..

my maid listen quietly

inside her room

really keneneh!

haha..

guessed what?

aris is PANTAT!

ida is BONTOT!

dhen..

i was on the phone

wif baby till morning..

around 4.45am

we put down the phone..

shes tired..but she just

dont want to put down the phone..

right bby?

i know...

now i just came back..

from cycling...

tired you know...

and now..

im blogging!!

and also chatting wif baby..

i will update more letaz..

for now..

i can only say this..

IMISSYOU!

only you that im thinking

right now!

baby!!

wif love..

bubbye!

ariSida idAris

Labels: i miss yuh

it wasnt my fault. 8:09 PM

Saturday, July 12, 2008

its early noon now..

just bath...

to keep me fresh..

but however..

my eyes are red..

my eyes are heavy...

i didnt go to bed..

my maid accompany me

till 3am..

coz she cant sleep too..

after hearing a shocking news

from her hometown..

her bf left her...

to marry some1 else..

felt sorry for her...

i sat in her room wif her..

we chit chat...

abit of laughter..

coz she was on the phone

wif her family...

i was sitting nxt to her...

doing nothing..

i just couldnt go to sleep..

i was thinking of baby

the whole night...

even when i played games..

listening to music...

doing my normal things...

i just couldnt do it right...

i tried hard..

to make myself to sleep..

but i cant..

im worried baby...

im worried if that thing

happens to you at night...

again...

yes i did cry while thinking of that...

i just couldnt accept the fact that..

you must be the one suffering...

but not me...

i just couldnt understand it...

why must you be the one?

ure suffering badly in pain nw...

but i just couldnt be there...

how i wish you were already

part of my family...

to cease ure pain...

to see you happy always...

many things happening to you..

that made you sad..

and also in pain...

its nt just ure family..

even ii myself made

you suffer too...

and now...

i dont even dare to make

you sad or angry...

i just cant...

and i dont wan to take the chance...

right now..

at this momment...

yes...im thinking of you..

yes...im worried for you..

when ure wif me...

all i wan to see from you is..

ure happy wif me..

thats all i need...

i dont need anything from you..

but i just need to see that

happiness in you...

i shall give you

all my love and care...

my trust...

my loyalty...

everything u asked from me..

i shall give you to make

to feel happy...

i got no heart to see you

sad...

i willing to do anything...

just say wat you wan..

i will give it to you..

i had never regretted since

the day i fall in love wif you...

even if it last long or short..

who knows...

but i do appreciate it alot..

every single bit you

had done for me...

had given me..

i appreciate it all

aint answering my calls..

makes me more worried..

its been more dhen 24hrs...

i didnt heard ure voice..

i didnt saw you..

i just dunno how to

move on in life..

i need you bby...

i really need you...

oh i feel like crying now...

bt i know..

this tears that i shed..

is worth crying for...

cause iloveyou...

call me soon please...

i cant carry on w/o you...

nomore..

nomore..

i wont be angry wif you...

i wont be mad wif you...

i will only be sad...

if ever i hurt you again...

bashed the hell out of me...

for making you angry...

i deserve it...

theres more to say...

but i guessed i will end here...

bye all...

and for baby...

im craving for you call..

for now...i wont be giving

you any calls or msg...

and i will just wait...

what we are facing now..

is just ups and downs in life..

its a roller coaster like i said..

is an obstacle that we need

go to through it together...

ArisIda

idaris

Labels: i wish i cud help yuh through ur misery

it wasnt my fault. 11:44 AM