Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Labels: I love you like i always do
it wasnt my fault. 10:36 PM
Friday, February 6, 2009
it wasnt my fault. 12:58 AM
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Labels: unforgetable birthday of mine (: it wasnt my fault. 5:57 PM
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Labels: she worried for me it wasnt my fault. 2:39 PM
My mood been swinging here and there..tried to control it but i just cant...hadnt ate since then...stomach making noises..but no cares?tried to occupy myself wif something...and study is the best thing...and really time flies..like hell fast?i had never expected that somehow...i could be happy while doing homework...my first time experiencing it...but come to think back...its STUPID MATHS HOMEWORK!makes me go berserk!i HATE maths now...i need to give this special thanks toMR KOH!for making my faith in maths gone away...what kind of teacher is this?soo demoralising...having two faces to me?being good infront of me...but at the back...u actually hates me like hell lot?if u happens to read this...im glad...becausewhat mistakes did i make to make youhave this perception of me?WTH YOU!if u dont even want me...say it straight at my FACE!because right now...i dont even need a teacher like you!you go to HELL!hate you alot!you can get the HELL out of my F life!__think of school...just made me hate you even worse...get it CLEAR...who i could call 'teacher'GET LOST!i guess...my mom were dissappointed in me...i didnt even ate a single thing she cooked for me...on my soo call 'birthday'sooo unreal!never in my life again...im happy on my birthday...5 feb?might as well it will be the date thatim dying?sound more like it...i just couldnt get you out of my mind...thinking of you...will just make me filled wif mixed feelings...am i suppose to feelangry?sad?frustrated?depressed?happy?worried?omg...with those words coming out of you mouth...everything were soo clear...a lesson for me to learn...EXPECT THE UNEXPECTEDget it?i dont know who i am now...someone...could u lend me your hands and give me ure guidance?will you?im lost here...
Hey its 5 february...its my birthday...im soo happy to be a year older...wishes from people..oh hell yea im happy...BUT BLOODY!its my my birthday but its NOT!its feels like the volcanoe just errupted!!my heart is bleeding bad...scoldings is what i heard since morning...only patience in me could help...its already at its limit...i broke my own promise!!aaarrgghhh!!!told myself not to be angry...but i did?it happens just in a blink of an eye...and thats it?never expected you to say that...the words from you werefast and smooth...like as if it was been planed..but it didnt....it was natural...how could ever people could resistthose words of your...your mouth moves beautifully...but the words aint as beautifully as it can be...how could that be?i just couldnt hold back anymore...i couldnt...trying to understand you that your sick...i did...but how could you?trying to take back the words you said?its aint simple as one two three or A B Cits not...its just soo unbelieveable...how?fluently said that...was it just to test me?made me realised myself?what issit actually?my dreams had shattered...till no remaining of it is left...to be fixed...its has mixed this thinest air that any1 could see...juz like a size of an atom i could say?how gosh...maybe dreams were only meant for dreams...wasnt for a reality...it takes time for my heart to mend to its normal self...but i couldnt do anything at this pointbut to acceptthat sentence of yours...PUAS HATI TKYAH CARRY ON...omg...its soo simple to be said...which had the greatest impact of my life now...on this faithful day of my 17th birthday...and this was my birthday present afterall...are we offically?
oh dear...its been ages since i update this blog of mine...since i got the free time...might as well i update it for awhile...im using simple words as i cant really think much now...having headaches since yesterday and it hadnt gottenany better till now...eating my medicine would only make my heahacheworse...feels like vommiting it all out...and tend to feel like i am going to faint...dear god...help me wif this will you?yesterday i went off from school at 10.10am...father took me home...then... went to clinic...gotten 2 days medical leave...means...im staying at home to rest...aww dear...hate it...guessed what?somebody doesnt like me in this condition...she hates it alot...im sorry my dear...me myself too... dont like it to be this way..im making you worried about me always...which will distract you wif whatever youre doing...but however...when im sick...i will get the warmth and confort from my dearest...isnt it GREAT?get to feel that someone actually cared for me...dearest always trying to be there beside mewhen i am sick...BUT WHERES MY MAC D?hehe...i know i am soo irritating when a im sick...tend to talk rubbish...tend not to do anything...my body are soo weak which prevent mefrom doing the things i want to do...didnt get a blissful sleep yesterday...this headache of mine keep waking me up...and around 3am i woke up to go to the toilet...and it was soo urgent...i almost urinated on my BED?holy shit!but i didnt...i forced myself to walk...and it was hell difficult...i had never expected walking to be difficult..my vision was blur throughout...my legs were weak...and all i could say was...i was like a drunken person..walking aimlessly at night...but somehow...i made it to my destination...which is the TOILET!it was a great achievement by me...mohd harris.. yahoo...then i went back to bed...i slept...woke up this morning at 5.45am...it was hell for me...i think theres a marble in my head that is spining around...and my head was about to burst...calm myself down...and try to put myself to bed again...but i cant..soo i stayed till 7am...and i call her...hehe...i love to hear her voice in the morning...it will just make my day...when i called her...dearest must be thinking that im going to school...and im under her voiddeck...right bie? right?i know...u cant deny it la okey?i know you too well already...ARGH!!!i dont wan to update anymore...IM SICK!bye..*cough* *cough*