MeMoRiEs Of EuU

2009-07-19T14:30:00.003+08:00

HE SAYS HE IS DARN LAZY TO UPDATE! THIS BLOG WILL SOON ROT. LUCKY HE GOT SUCHHA GOOD GOOD GIRLFRIEND WHO WILL HELP HIM TO MAKE THIS BLOG ALIVE!

2009-06-15T16:40:00.000+08:00

Mister,can u please update? im so eager to read ure updates laa. everytime i drop by here,theres always the same updates je. ape nie? hahah. takecare lah mister! iloveyou and i know u loves me too :) no need say. bye!

2009-06-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

Baby,if u didnt realize,ive put my blog private. but ive already invited you. anything,just write down ure email and password. takecare alright. loveyou.

2009-06-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

Oh,lets update. ive just read baby's archives. haha. kinda funny to actually read it again. those times when we are bestfriends. totally miss it. but now we are way more than bestfriends. teehee. all i know is that,im lucky im in love with my bestfriend =) takecare all.

2009-06-08T21:15:00.001+08:00

Baby is down with a vely vely bad bad headache ): get well soon baby.

lemme be the cure for it.

2009-06-06T18:00:00.000+08:00

Me is here to update. take note that thys post is written by hys girlfriend. anyway,the song in baby's blog is so temporary alright. i got no idea what song he wants so lets just put thys song for the time being. and me was told that thys song was one of hys favourites. so baby,sorrylah i cannot find the song ' Cun Saja ' by sleeq in mixpod/imeem. i so dont know why. told you im gonna put that song in ure blog since u often sing it to me when everytime you are with me and i often gets irritated by some of the words in the song. hah =). i love you baby. next thing,ive just change baby's blogskin too. as you can see,the header is the same as mine. wooohoo. kate sehati sejiwe kan. despite the fact that me still not okay,me still want to update in thys blog because me miss the owner so so very very much =/ i dont know whr is he right now. i hope he is just find out there and never forgets me not even a bit. oh please ): i felt the heartache u felt when we are on the phone jus now. i couldnt help it but to just cry. i was out of words,so out of words. i just want you to know,that i had never had any intentions to make them had bad impressions over you. not even a single bit. i dont want you to take things the other way round. my parents aint that bad afterall. think,if they are,why would they lemme be in a relationship with you after so many times they have seen me crying and shouting over the phone? i know you too well baby. i cried,it wasnt cause by you at all. why must you even think that way? i knew what u have been feeling throughout the times when we are arguing on the phone. i just couldnt bear the heartache no more. im not strong like how i used to. but i know those hatred,those fights,had never stop me from loving you. infact,it makes my love grow stronger as each days pass by. i hope it goes the same for you. i dont want to be the cause of the feeling u feel inside. i want to be the cure for it. ill gyf u that love and ill make you feel that u are appreciated like how u make me feel all this while. ill return back the favour in any way i can. just dont let me bear thys pain alone anymore. i better go now. takecare everyone.

2009-06-01T15:00:00.012+08:00

It has been monkey, donkey years since baby update hys blog. however,i dont want hys blog to be so dead. i bet theres no people reading hys blog right now except me. haha,poor baby! so,me as hys girlfriend will help hym to cover up some updates in this dead blog. wahahas. things between us is absolutely going fine as each days pass by. with the never ending love baby had given to me,i just love hys company and it makes me feel lost everytime hys not around. thats the reason why i need hym so much lately. and another reason i want to be with hym everytime is to make sure that he wont fall to other people's hand. haha,evil me. no matter what,i know my baby loves me la. last night,i was so pissed and dissapointed with baby. you people might go and just read my blog for more details alright. i dont wanna brag about it but eventually,i did! oh yes,i did. because baby,you know i cant help it. i cried to sleep and therefore i wouldnt even care to gyf you a call last night. i dont want to hear anything else that will eventually lead me to another heartpain. somehow,i know my baby wasnt intentional. but still,i didnt woke up to a good morning today. hearing from little brother,telling me that you did called me,was happy enough. still,i was so down after giving you so much missed calls and then you didnt picked up. see,i hate it when i put so much high hopes! urgh. whatever it is,i know my baby is a man of hys words. you promised to meet me today right? takmo go back on your words lagi sudaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah =D as for today,baby was having hys MT O Level paper. im sorry if i didnt gyf you words of encouragement thys morning when you texted me telling me your off to school already. i know i should have given you a call after not giving you a call last night. but i hope that will teach you a lesson huh. haha. naaa. everything you do,you know ill always be there to support you. it isnt dat easy to get you off my mind ya know? =D and what the hell,im saying this when the actual fact is that hys paper is already over for how many hours already. well,just look at the time la. *sigh sorry baby. you know i love you till the end. now,im getting so random. im bored to the extreme core. i want to meet baby. but where is he ? he's not showing me any signs yet. hais. till here.

2009-04-06T01:26:00.002+08:00

Here it goes again

my head is hurting bad

my thoughts are perishing day after day

things i knew once was all forgotten

i cant recall many things

i broke down many times by myself

she has always complain about why i always

got nothing to talk when im on the phone wif her

i just dunno...

i tried forcing my brains to think

i just cant

its hard for me..

so damn diffucult

i wont describe more about my head

but i could say that it is unbearable

everytime i tried to force things out of my brains

its just too hurtful...

why it is like that?

i just cant recall anything

i end this now...

im in pain right now...

Its Been Days...

2009-03-11T22:50:00.002+08:00

My brain has been running around

Trying to escape from the skull

To be free to wonder around

Not to feel like imprisonment

Headache was felt since the past 3 days

Not feeling well

Down with a bad flu

On monday,i remembered during the ECT3 for maths

I kept snizzing till i shed my tears

My eyes were all reddish in colour

Eversince the day i not feeling well

I hadnt got to talk to my dearest at night

Everytime when i woke up from my sleep

I called her

And theres no answer

Well

Maybe shes tired afterall

She needs some rest too

Like how she asked me to have as much rest

As she wants me to get well soon

But however

I cant be well afterall

Shes still not giving me the cure to my sickness yet

But im still waiting for it (:

Well

Only she knows what my cure is all about

I hate being sick

Body felt weak

Felt like as if i was half dead

I just need some comfort that i always felt

Which would heal me to the fullest

Right now

Im here blogging

And also looking out at the sky

Reminiscing our past memories

How we felt during the past

And how we felt now

And its just soo GREAT (: blueh..

Im relieve after it ended..

2009-02-11T22:36:00.002+08:00

Here goes again, i post...

Had some free time now...

Lets think of something to post now...

Erm... okey... i got it..

My days were a nightmare since my birthday...

Everything were in a mess...

Mood changes soo quickly..

Vain my anger to everybody...

I was ego even until today...

In school today, i was trying to pick a fight...

Actually i am the one whos trying to cause a fight...

i was really not myself...

Didnt believe?Try asking my buddy...

His name Ang Zheng Kai aka ah kai...

Could say, he was even mad at me...

Shouting the lungs out of me...

to who dares stare me...

Get it? im aint myself today...

Okey its getting rubbish soo... lets stop it..

lets open a topic call "WAR"

I have been fighting with baby ever since that day...

Just like Gaza & Israel...

We hadnt got peace between us...

She tend to get easily mad over something...

And me, being ego...

I was hard headed afterall...

Still fresh in my mind...

I was throwing my anger to her...

After what she had said...

And i know, its bad...

She must felt that heartache...

soo deep till i couldnt even imagined...

Forcing her to go home even when she didnt want to...

Pulling her arms...

Shouting at her in a public...

Such an embarassment to her as well as me...

Never i thought be such a holigan myself...

Never expect things to go this way too...

But it already did...

And today...

I was pissed off with her for going out of school...

Without even giving me a call...

Just a call will do to tell me everything...

I wasnt even listening to her explaination...

But instead...

Again, followed my egoness...

Its been straight days she been crying out...

To me.. or even herself silently..

Without me knowing...

Shes been crying her heart out...

Just to make this relastionship last...

And frankly speaking...

I didnt even realised it all...

After i given a deep thought to it...

Which is just a few minutes ago?

She had given her soul to me...

For me to take care of it...

But sometimes...

I just ignored it as though as it didnt even matters at all...

She been good to me all the time...

Just a misunderstanding that ruined us apart...

I always get the other way round with everything she says...

Im sorry...

I cant be understanding like how you wanted me too...

Im sorry for not being that person you wanted me to be...

Why couldnt i possiblely think about you?

Whenever we got mad with each other...

I just couldnt.. and i dont even know why...

You loved me from the bottom of your heart...

So do i...

After everything ended just now...

I felt free...

I felt as though as we just met a second ago...

Just like our first meeting?

Where we could laugh out loud like the world is just ours?

I remembered those times...

I felt happy until now...

I just couldnt explain it...

But im happy...

From what i could predict...

It going to take a long time for us to start a new "COLD WAR"...

or even... find peace till our last breathe?

I could see it through...

Right now...

All i could say is that...

I LOVE YOU LIKE I ALWAYS DO...

It wont be less & it wont stay...

My love is at its infinate...

Calculator cant calculate...

Ruler cant measures...

Only both hearts reads itself...

I love you..

2009-02-06T00:58:00.002+08:00

My mood been swinging here and there..

tried to control it but i just cant...

hadnt ate since then...

stomach making noises..

but no cares?

tried to occupy myself wif something...

and study is the best thing...

and really time flies..

like hell fast?

i had never expected that somehow...

i could be happy while doing homework...

my first time experiencing it...

but come to think back...

its STUPID MATHS HOMEWORK!

makes me go berserk!

i HATE maths now...

i need to give this special thanks to

MR KOH!

for making my faith in maths gone away...

what kind of teacher is this?

soo demoralising...

having two faces to me?

being good infront of me...

but at the back...

u actually hates me like hell lot?

if u happens to read this...

im glad...because

what mistakes did i make to make you

have this perception of me?

WTH YOU!

if u dont even want me...

say it straight at my FACE!

because right now...

i dont even need a teacher like you!

you go to HELL!

hate you alot!

you can get the HELL out of my F life!

think of school...

just made me hate you even worse...

get it CLEAR...

who i could call 'teacher'

GET LOST!

i guess...

my mom were dissappointed in me...

i didnt even ate a single thing she cooked for me...

on my soo call 'birthday'

sooo unreal!

never in my life again...

im happy on my birthday...

5 feb?

might as well it will be the date that

im dying?

sound more like it...

i just couldnt get you out of my mind...

thinking of you...

will just make me filled wif mixed feelings...

am i suppose to feel

angry?

sad?

frustrated?

depressed?

happy?

worried?

omg...

with those words coming out of you mouth...

everything were soo clear...

a lesson for me to learn...

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED

get it?

i dont know who i am now...

someone...

could u lend me your hands and give me ure guidance?

will you?

im lost here...

officially?

2009-02-05T17:57:00.002+08:00

Hey its 5 february...

its my birthday...

im soo happy to be a year older...

wishes from people..

oh hell yea im happy...

BUT BLOODY!

its my my birthday but its NOT!

its feels like the volcanoe just errupted!!

my heart is bleeding bad...

scoldings is what i heard since morning...

only patience in me could help...

its already at its limit...

i broke my own promise!!

aaarrgghhh!!!

told myself not to be angry...

but i did?

it happens just in a blink of an eye...

and thats it?

never expected you to say that...

the words from you were

fast and smooth...

like as if it was been planed..

but it didnt....

it was natural...

how could ever people could resist

those words of your...

your mouth moves beautifully...

but the words aint as beautifully as it can be...

how could that be?

i just couldnt hold back anymore...

i couldnt...

trying to understand you that your sick...

i did...

but how could you?

trying to take back the words you said?

its aint simple as one two three or A B C

its not...

its just soo unbelieveable...

how?

fluently said that...

was it just to test me?

made me realised myself?

what issit actually?

my dreams had shattered...

till no remaining of it is left...

to be fixed...

its has mixed this thinest air that any1 could see...

juz like a size of an atom i could say?

how gosh...

maybe dreams were only meant for dreams...

wasnt for a reality...

it takes time for my heart to mend to its normal self...

but i couldnt do anything at this point

but to accept

that sentence of yours...

PUAS HATI TKYAH CARRY ON...

omg...

its soo simple to be said...

which had the greatest impact of my life now...

on this faithful day of my 17th birthday...

and this was my birthday present afterall...

are we offically?

2009-02-03T14:39:00.003+08:00

oh dear...

its been ages since i update this blog of mine...

since i got the free time...

might as well i update it for awhile...

im using simple words as i cant really think much now...

having headaches since yesterday and it hadnt gotten

any better till now...

eating my medicine would only make my heahache

worse...

feels like vommiting it all out...

and tend to feel like i am going to faint...

dear god...

help me wif this will you?

yesterday i went off from school at 10.10am...

father took me home...

then... went to clinic...

gotten 2 days medical leave...

means...

im staying at home to rest...

aww dear...

hate it...

guessed what?

somebody doesnt like me in this condition...

she hates it alot...

im sorry my dear...

me myself too... dont like it to be this way..

im making you worried about me always...

which will distract you wif whatever youre doing...

but however...

when im sick...

i will get the warmth and confort from my dearest...

isnt it GREAT?

get to feel that someone actually cared for me...

dearest always trying to be there beside me

when i am sick...

BUT WHERES MY MAC D?

hehe...

i know i am soo irritating when a im sick...

tend to talk rubbish...

tend not to do anything...

my body are soo weak which prevent me

from doing the things i want to do...

didnt get a blissful sleep yesterday...

this headache of mine keep waking me up...

and around 3am i woke up to go to the toilet...

and it was soo urgent...

i almost urinated on my BED?

holy shit!

but i didnt...

i forced myself to walk...

and it was hell difficult...

i had never expected walking to be difficult..

my vision was blur throughout...

my legs were weak...

and all i could say was...

i was like a drunken person..

walking aimlessly at night...

but somehow...

i made it to my destination...

which is the TOILET!

it was a great achievement by me...

mohd harris.. yahoo...

then i went back to bed...

i slept...

woke up this morning at 5.45am...

it was hell for me...

i think theres a marble in my head that is spining around...

and my head was about to burst...

calm myself down...

and try to put myself to bed again...

but i cant..

soo i stayed till 7am...

and i call her...

hehe...

i love to hear her voice in the morning...

it will just make my day...

when i called her...

dearest must be thinking that im going to school...

and im under her voiddeck...

right bie? right?

i know...

u cant deny it la okey?

i know you too well already...

ARGH!!!

i dont wan to update anymore...

IM SICK!

bye..

*cough* *cough*

why?

2008-12-21T23:56:00.004+08:00

why must there be something on...

after we settle our things out?

why?

i just dont get it sia...

i juz dont get it...

i hate it!

fcuking hate it...

i given you the 100% trust...

but i guess...

i wont give u the normal trust

that i hv been giving you lately...

really im not lying...

must you u hide things from me?

is that damn THING much more important then me?

which u cant even let me see it?

WTF sia...

u want to keep something away from me?

whereas i...

I...

had NEVER keep anything from you...

whose damn card is that?

why didnt u show me?

why are u scared to show me?

if not guilty...

why not showing it to me?

budak mnr punya bende u pigang?

laki mnr punye bende u pigang?

siak ak...

aku skrg tk suke siot!

kepecayaan ii skrg...

da kurang untuk u...

i skrg doubts towards you...

seriously...

u wan to show me..

what your cousin msg?

guess what i saw...

A HUGE NUMBER OF OTHER BOIS MSGES...

gerek kepe...

dengar2...

i buang2 pp8 kat u je pe...

aper salahnyr?

PADAHAL PADAHAL ehk...

mcm manr i nk pecaye u nih?

words are only words la k...

u nk ckp diorg sume tkder aper2?

da la ehk...

i da tkleh percaye lagik...

im aint kidding...

panggil smue budak2 tuu...

tk kire saper la ehk...

i nk jumpe diorg smue...

diorg tknk jumpe...

i carik diorg....

nih...

i bukan nk menakutkn...

i kate...

i buat...

my trust for you...

has gone...

gone down the drain...

u wan the trust back?

earned it yourself...

by showing you really wanna the trust back...

sial la...

asl?

ader budak laki lain ke yang you suke nih?

bilang ii skrg...

kalo u nk kate i sorg je...

susa lah i nk percaye lagik...

da tk terdaye lagi nk percaye...

tunggukkn je yg boleh buat i percaye kat u alek...

the trust is 0%

i know...

im not the only 1...

n i cant deny it...

please i beg you...

2008-12-20T08:29:00.003+08:00

day by day...

time by time...

passes quickly without us

even noticing it...

same goes for us...

everything changing soo quickly...

how could i just deny that

we faces lots of arguement...

im just a sissy boy...

who always run around from the arguement...

without solving it...

or issit i found it waste of time?

the arguements are not necessary...

its not a must for us to face...

but why arent we avoiding it?

but yet...

we are allowing it to pass through

between our relationship...

theres no reason for us to be fighting...

if thats the case...

it means every 2 days..

we will fight once...

its had been repeating itself...

issit true when people said that..

history will repeat itself?

im starting to believe in it...

somehow...

somewhere deep in me...

i really dont want...

i wont explain my reason nomore...

because it wont do abit...

u might think im selfish...

or maybe im...

just like ur lil bro said...

im selfish...

i wont care abit for anybody...

even for you...

seeking for my own happiness is all i do...

i didnt think for a second for you...

how could i?

deadmeat...

i change alot...

but i dont seem to realise it at all...

i getting back to my oldself...

its always you who gets the heartache...

not me...

im the caused of it...

your tears will soon b worthless...

once you realised it...

that im aint a guy for you...

this would be my last sorry...

its heavy for me to say this but...

i just want you to be happy...

with who you want to be...

i dont want to be the heartache of your...

baby...

maybe calling you by the name baby...

would be my last too...

baby...

please seek for your own happiness...

i want baby to be happy...

go..

go find someone that is zillion times better than me...

please...

i beg you...

i dont want to hurt you nomore...

u had felt too much...

enough is enough...

please find someone better than me...

i dont want to see you cry again...

go and search the dream MR..

that you been searching all these while...

let us be the memories for the learning journey...

of finding the one you really love...

please...

please baby...

*cries*

ITS URE BUHDAY!!!

2008-12-16T01:17:00.003+08:00

Oh no!

whos buhday?

its Baby's buhday!!

she turned 15..

oh GOSH..

ure getting OLD!!

hehe XD

im sorry i lied...

i lied to you...

that i cant celebrate wif you..

during you buhday...

i know it hurts...

when i repeat it...

however...

i got a good intention right baby?

13th DEC...

poop out from nowhere...

and you were shock to see me...

youre CUTE my dear...

soo baby...

ARE YOU READY TO GO OUT?

hehe...

im soo the naughty...

Its your day...

just say where you want to go..

i will bring you there...

tell me what you want...

i shall buy it for you...

far east is our first destination?

went shopping abit...

brought TEEs for baby...

soo marina square is our second pit-stop?

we ate mac...

brought alot...

end up...

wasting it all up...

GOSH dear...

we been wasting money on food everytime?

diao...

ate till our stomach is about to explode...

dhen proceed to our third stop...

which is plaze singapura...

thought of catching a movie there...

but unfortunately...

the place is full of ANTS!!

damn you ANTS!!

couldnt you give us a peace?

since is baby's buhday?

be understanding please?

instead..

headed to cathay...

we catch a movie there...

and babygirl was lucky...

she able to catch twilight on her buhday...

soo the lucky!!

KEN to the TOT!!

the show is excellent...

what makes the show is absolutely US...

those TEMPTATION...

makes it feel SENSATION...

only US know..

WEEHEE....

after it ends...

we thought of shopping again...

but sadly...

the shops are closing...

shit you!

and so..

baby having stomach upset...

maybe bcoz..

theres too much air in it?

soo grab a bite at long john...

and so...

as for normal..

we waste our food...

and if im not wrong...

we are the last customer to leave?

im sorry to keep you all waiting...

baby had to go west coast park...

family gathering there...

soo i tag along...

as her mum said that...

they will be sending me home...

soo i stayed...

took cab to go there...

but instead we went EAST coast...

wth?

waste my freaking money!!!

i could get lost...

the driver took us to a WEIRD route...

i was like looking at the surrounding...

thinking...

where the hell are we...

and there goes my baby...

sleeping on my lap..

like i said...

shes having stomach upset...

i put her to sleep...

dont you guys ever see her...

when shes sleeping...

because...

shes just too SWEET to b seen by you!

got that?

and this is my rule...

u broke that rule...

and my FIST will come after you...

soo stayed at west coast park till 2am i guess?

with baby and family...

and soon..

i was sent home...

thanks for the ride...

and baby...

i hope you had a great time today...

the whole day u were with me...

iloveyou dearest...

tell me the truth and only truth..

2008-12-06T02:18:00.002+08:00

its already been days...

its proven...

we are not the same...

everything between us...

dont feel right...

i had never...

expected you to be like this...

for the past 6 months since i met you...

you had never been like this...

you had been soo sweet..

like a candy...

and somehow...

now..

u sound different...

i just dont get it..

i realised...

i havent know the real you i guess...

i thought...

i had known you...

but now...

i didnt...

you dont seems to be happy anymore...

when we both on the phone...

you sound moody...

angry...

you not the happy girl i once knew...

i must say...

i had failed my task...

i had always wanted you to be happy...

but now...

you often get mad...

im felt that...

your love for me...

is fading...

issit true?

im aint in a good condition now...

everything seems different...

unlike before...

u tend to shoot words at me...

everything the words you said...

makes me broke down...

my hands were shivering..

when you shoot words at me..

i cant even be strong like i used too...

you had weaken me to the core...

im aint a guy...

that could satisfy you or..

makes you happy...

look deep in your heart...

find the answer to it...

are your feelings faded towards me?

the strong magnetic bonds..

that holds us together are soon gona break...

just tell me if you really...

and really meant it...

that you really wanna be wif me..

in future to come...

theres still many fishes in the sea...

much more better then me...

im aint a guy meant for you...

i can see through it all...

im still cherishing this moment before..

its gone...

i shall give you all the time in the world you need...

to find the answer...

if you feelings is really for me...

if theres someone better then me..

do tell me...

because that would makes me realise...

im aint the same league as you..

and aint a guy for you...

its kinda hard for me to be posting this...

when im crying...

its all i can say...

tell me the truth and only truth with no regrets...

call me when you have the answer to your heart...

WORK WORK!

2008-12-03T08:38:00.003+08:00

okey...

enough of the heartache i face...

time will soon heal the hole in my heart...

hopefully it will...

or maybe it cant...

just a cure i needed from you baby...

well...

i was informed yesterday...

im posted to harbourfront!

F SHYT!

walau ehk...

i hate it...

later need to go faiz first

dhen go harbourfront...

soo i guess...

i will be home late everyday...

omg!!

idontlike it...

okey go bYE...

How could you baby?

2008-12-03T08:26:00.002+08:00

Why must it be like this baby?

tell me why?

i had imagined yesterday to a sweet day for us...

oh...

it turn bad instead?

why?

you might say im spying on you...

not trusting you...

or etc...

but if really im spying on you...

i would already followed you to sentose...

w/o you knowing...

not trusting?

if i didnt...

i wont even let you go...

but yet...

im happy that you go...

and have fun...

yesterday...

just a short talk face to face...

will change everything....

just a short talk...

everything would be fine...

i was expecting you...

to keep asking me why...

i stayed at vivo until u finished eating...

i thought you will ask me why...

but instead you scold me...

i went out of home at 4.15pm

and reach vivo at 5pm...

went all the way just for you...

b4 that...

i went BPP..

brought things for you...

luckily...

i didnt brought that thing along...

or else i will be like a stupid dog...

with no direction to go...

haizz...

i brought a small gif you..

that thing...

is something to put at ure hp...

there is a small RED ROSE..

which indicate LOVE between us...

in the glass...

there a phrase

I LOVE YOU...

i told myself when i at vivo...

that by today i need to gif that thing...

to you...

but i wasnt strong enough...

i wasnt strong enuff...

to outstand the hurting impact...

that tym...

i really broke down...

when u call me and scold me..

asking me to go home...

im crying...

infront of the F crowds...

met you at busstop...

still...

im not strong enuff...

to see you into the eyes...

why?

why aint i strong?

why must i always be weak?

i hate it!!

ARGH HATE!

DISSAPOINTED!

2008-12-02T22:04:00.004+08:00

never i imagined it will be this way...

my plan failed today...

thought of surprising you at VIVO...

but it turns back a round i guess...

instead u were angry...

yes i lied from the vary begining...

from the msg...

i lied that i had to meet boss for meeting...

but i didnt...

what i meant by BOSS...

is YOU...

i went all the way to VIVO...

to meet to and spend time together there...

but its all gone to waste...

4hours of crafting a paper ROSE..

which i put my heart n soul to it...

were gone to waste too...

i thought of giving you when i met you

at vivo...

but i didnt get the chance...

yesterday night...

told my mum n my dearest bro...

that i will be off...

and go home late coz im wif ida...

i must thank my mum...

iloveyou mother...

u gave me 2 tickets...

but sorry...

i didnt make use of it...

thx bro...

for giving me 100bucks...

for me to spend together wif ida...

but didnt spend a single cent of it...

soo i will return it all later...

how sad?

i went to ask all these for us...

but what i get?

i went soo far to VIVO...

to surprise you...

tapi ini i dpt?

u once told me...

lets go watch movie right?

i thought of catching a movie..

after u finished wif you friends...

thats why i waited for you...

after u ate...

but i wanna expecting that..

we could have dinner together...

but same...

i didnt get the chance...

i brought a small thing...

for you...

also didnt gave you...

but after u gave me a call..

after u eaten...

u scold me?

ask me to go home?

i got a damn F heartache...

i just dont know how to describe it dear...

i plans is all ruined...

can you believe it?

i cant believe it either...

the thoughts of spending time wif you...

were crushed...

like a glass thrown onto the stone...

im sad...

please...

i hate today..

HELLO&BYE :D

2008-11-21T17:24:00.004+08:00

Ok. th reason ive not been updating its because im busy working&wont hve that much tym to even update my blog. sorry. i guess ill update when i got th tym. so seeeeeee yaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Message for BABY..

2008-11-21T00:26:00.004+08:00

Just an hour left...

Everything around me is different..

Without you around...

is difficult for me to move on...

hard for me to breathe..

theres no air for me to inhale..

those pool of tears will soon be

a ocean for each

tears that drips...

your voice that been

fixing my broken heart..

will soon be unheard...

pieces by pieces...

My heart is back to its oldself...

Just a broken hearted boy...

The laughter that we shared...

would be laugh alone...

this sense of great lost...

troubled me onto going...

these zillions of feelings...

captures me into a world of dreams...

i dont know what will happen...

but for sure...

im scared...

for 9days...

im aint around...

not knowing what are you doing...

who you going out wif...

who you calling...

who you msging...

SHYT...

im just scared...

scared of losing you...

i know that we are far...

from each other...

Yet we are close...

i had mend you deeply inside my heart...

nothing can make me stop loving you...

im scared that within 9days...

i would lose you to someone else...

which i dont want to see...

how i wish...

i could bring you along side wif me...

so that i could monitor you wif all my love...

but soon...

only shadows accompany...

everyday...

i promise...

i will wish on apon a star...

to help you through the night...

without thinking about me too much...

as so, you would have a goodnyt sleep...

that star...

will guide you...

and will tell you...

that im fine there...

that star would even tell you...

something that writen deep in my heart...

that is...

how badly i need you...

the strong love i have for you...

yes..

is all true baby...

its my last day before the trip...

soo i guess i post till now...

just wif simple words...

but lastly...

nurul suaidah...

could you be sure that i wont lose you?

to anyone else?

can?

im just scared...

:'(

Sorry ):

2008-11-05T10:26:00.003+08:00

I didnt had a good night sleep...

bodyaching leg cramps...

eyes heavy...

eyes red...

having a good sleep yesterday...

is totally impossible...

i kept thinking...

about my attitude towards her...

i realised it..

im starting to show attitude to her..

from bad to worse...

what changing me?

i really dont know...

is what she say really true?

my trust for her is LACKING?

my love for her is FADING?

NO!

its not true...

i had always trusted her from the

very begining...

i always love her from the very start

when i SAW her...

i know its true...

im aint being understanding nowdays...

getting angry over a small matters...

oh gosh...

what am i coming to?

i do know its a mistake for you...

but its okey...

you already said SORRY right?

i know im being soo rough at you

do FORGIVE ME can?

whatever happens between us...

you should know...

my love is meant only for you...

for now...

i had already forget about the arguement yesterday...

i love you baby..

my one & only CUCUMBER!!

hehe

mwuah!

NO MOOD!

2008-11-05T00:15:00.003+08:00

okey best...

i just came back from work...

and guessed what..

im not in the mood right now...

i thought of updating some

experience of mine during work...

and how i miss those times i had wif you..

but i got no mood...

im ready to go with REGRETS

2008-10-30T13:57:00.002+08:00

looking out of the window...

into the world of emptiness...

its creeps me deep...

the world is all mine...

i could go anywhere i wan...

but..

my shadow accompany me...

all thoughts of having someone..

had perish...

living this meaningless life on my own..

between happiness n death...

this is what im feeling..

death is the path i chosen...

i had given up my life...

please god...

grab the heart out of me...

im ready to return to who created me...

leaving everything behind...

not looking back...

soo please...

take me away now...

it hurts to be thinking at any point of time...

shivering is all i could do...

enduring all these pain is what i felt...

me a burden to every1...

please if you guyz...

treat me as your friend...

do take a knife...

stab me...

stab me in the vital part...

that the part when everything in this world turn alive...

everyone enjoying..

please some1...

save me from all these pain...

those who fulfill what i asked...

i grateful...

because u just bring the pain away...

BE QUICK...

Sayang.. ily

2008-10-30T10:56:00.002+08:00

Well firstly...

i would wan to thank my babygirl..

for helping me to change my blogskin...

thankyou very much...

not been updating for such a long time...

maybe i just didnt have the time?

or plain lazy?

well thats me...

lazy pig... (:

Secondly...

babygirl...

i do like the blogskin..

once again i thankyou...

it clearly can be seen that...

nowdays...

we hardly get peace between us...

war here and there just because of small matters...

Issit because of my EGO?

erm..

I cant be more understanding?

erm...

I cant be more patience?

well...

i dont even know myself...

i would only let you judge me..

better that i let others judge me

than me myself judging...

its kinda ridicules to judge our ownself...

its weird for me to say this kinda stuff to you...

but i really need you to know...

erm...

u really changed alot..

i meant it...

u did change alot my dear...

ure hand is soo LIGHT

ure mouth is soo FREE

but please...

theres a limit okey my dear?

i hope you understand these...

doesnt mean that for me..

u had changed...

bcoz i do changed in time as well...

but my love for you...

had NEVER i mean it NEVER EVER changed..

i had love you from the very start..

and im the one who wanted harris & ida to be ONE..

how could i ever leave you?

i love the old you...

seriously...

i wan the old nurul suaidah back...

i wont write youre full name (:

and i really wan the old ida back?

could ii my dear?

i read your blog...

yest at around midnight...

i do understand ure situation now...

+ ours?

daioz...

ure situation is totally dot dot dot...

i had never thought of breaking up wif you...

erm or i can say ONCE i did thought of it...

and that was during the first couple of days...

when we had fight for 3 days?

didnt talk?

didnt msg?

the problem is caused by ayun?

but ever since u explained to me...

i make sure i really did forget all abt it...

soo i did admit now..

i thought of breaking up wif you ONCE...

and now...

u thought that breaking up is the best solution?

maybe its the best for you...

but not me...

the past 4 months... +1month when we get to knw

each other...

how could i ever forget the memories that we shared?

frankly speaking...

i cant forget...

most people said...

THERES MANY FISHES IN THE OCEAN..

but for me..

theres none beside you..

how could i forget you?

like you said to me before...

theres always something for us to learn...

in every arguement we had..

didnt you?

i could recall it my dear..

our memories are still fresh in my mind...

but since now...

u thought breaking is a best solution?

well i guess i wont hold back anymore...

and u said...

ure giving up already...

its youre decision...

and i do respect youre decision...

its all in youre hands my dear...

but always think twice before u do something..

i wont be mad at you..

and i need to bring this message across..

i love you wif all my heart...

i said these..

because im sure...

i do love you..

and youre my only one...

i dontknow if im to be sad or happy..

I WAN THE OLD IDARIS BACK..

PLEASE...

2008-09-21T01:30:00.002+08:00

TRAGEDY OF LIFE IS NOT THAT IT END SOO SOON...

BUT THAT WE WAITED SO LONG TO BEGIN IT...

life is not what it expected to be..

something we got..

could juz dissappear juz..

in a blink of an eye..

life wont be complete w/o problems..

we faced problems everyday..

but somehow..

theres a reason why it happen..

its juz a test for us..

theres something in that problem..

that want us to crack it..

it is to make us more stronger..

than we are today..

be strong like a metal wall..

facing all obstacle to come..

escaping from those problems..

wont do any good...

its will juz turn worst...

keep on trying even if

you are in your hardest time

in life...

you will neva know..

what it turn out to be..

if would be something special..

which you long to know..

along the way...

many such friends you would encounter..

but theres two catogary of friends..

one is angel...

another is DEVIL...

the devil is the one..

who would dumped you when ure in need

of them..

they are the one who would crash youre heart..

into ASHES..

burning youre heart slowly..

without even caring about your feelings...

thats what i call devil..

sickening friends do exists in this small world...

for those angel..

are the one who will help you through..

in what ever situation youre in...

they are the one...

that you WONT expect to be with you..

but yet..

they are...

thats what i call..

REAL FRIENDS..

every harsh words you got..

will just weaken youre strength...

but if you put it on the positive mind...

well..

it will put you smiling wide..

because...

what they say about you..

is absolutely..

NONSENSE...

the reason they call you name..

is because they cant resist how good you are..

but instead...

they themselves are SHYT..

dont take words from them soo hard...

take it lightly..

and im sure...

it will give you some laughter...

in everything you do...

theres always someone..

someone..

watching you..

caring about you...

even without you noticing it..

im here always for my friends...

friends are something that

i treasure soo much...

the bonds we shared...

is difficult to break..

2008-09-21T01:08:00.002+08:00

19 SEPTEMBER!

FRIDAY...

start of my day

with some1...

whom i describe it as...

my shrine of happiness...

and who is that person...

ITS MY WIFE!!!

Nurul Suaidah Btw Roslan..

put me wif a big smile on my face...

im so proud to have you..

as my GF..

i really do...

went school...

we were running late...!

luckily we made it in time...

weehee..

MY GOD MUM!!

thanks ehk...

BUT!! BUT!!

everytime i went into ISH..

i always have this feeling of MELANCHOLY..

always sad...

had to be seperated with my WIFE...

how could you?

you left me hanging...

breathing is hard w/o you around me...

yet...

i had to leave it that way...

went for my PRELIM..

only chemistry for that day...

ended at 9.15am..

i know...

its way damn so early..

but still i didnt went home...

i stayed at school...

waited for MUMMY!!

weehee...

DING DONG DING DONG!!!

bell for dismissal!!

met up wif baby...

and send her home...

after sending her home...

i thought of sitting under 143 voiddeck..

as the sun is blazing hot...

the weather..

TK BLEH TAHAN AK...

my body were weak then...

walking home wasnt at my mind at all...

soo i slacked there all by myself...

till 4+pm...

i was all alone...

SLEEPING!

mummy msged me...

she was shocked when she got to know

that im still there...

she went down...

and send me home...

ouh...

soo good of her...

if she didnt came down...

i dont think i will be coming home..

till the time for breakingFAST...

she came to my house...

sat around...

chit chat...

dhen i followed her to fetch his lil bro from school...

and send them back home...

and i went HOME!

wow...

this damn tiring...

thirst to DEATH!!

oh...

spending most of my time...

with baby..

is what i borned to do...

i really do love you syang...

do syang me back please...

2008-09-18T23:07:00.002+08:00

TRYING TO RECALL!!!

MONDAY!!

went school wif mummy...

as for normal...

had MT 'O' prelim paper..

i dont know how i fair for it...

it look easy but when result is out...

it sucks to the core!

hopefully a PASS for MT is good enough...

for my standard...

weehee...

soo..

after school...

send mummy to teck whye...

to her friend's house...

while me...

went to my grandma house...

which was 2 blocks away...

stayed till 5.30pm...

before meeting mummy...

to send her home...

that day...

was very tiring...

i slept all the way while at my grandma house...

nothing to do...

everybody sleeping...

aiyer...

might as well i join them right?

weehee..

TUESDAY!!!

erm...

again...

morning wif mummy...

went school and ya...

we are not late...

yeppi!

and again...

having 'O' prelim...

its social studies...

end at 10.30am...

soo stayed at school till 11.30am

weehee...

juz to spent my time wif mummy

during recess...

accompany her dhen i went home...

dhen reached home...

wash up...

rest...

and went off again...

took mummy to my crib...

asked her out for design for my wall...

well..

design was okey la...

juz need abit of touch-up...

and all of it will be PERFECT!

weehee...

WEDNESDAY!!

well its a normal routine...

start of my day wif mummy...

and again..

EXAMS!!!

'O' PRELIM!!!

having maths and geo...

sorry dear....

kept giving you wrong timing...

i know ure dissapointed...

but still...

we did met...

paper ended at 1.30pm..

its soo late...

and mummy were waiting for me...

in the canteen..

she studying while me...

need to attend chemistry class for an hour...

soo around 3.30pm...

class dismissed...

went to my BABY...

ure been miss alot you see...

soo after that...

send her home...

and i went home too...

had to drag my legs la...

soo tiring...

THURSDAY!!!

well said...

morning wif darling...

the same old thing...

PRELIMS!!!

soo stressed up...

two str8 weeks...

im having EXAMS!!

can mati liao!

abit more to go...

until im FREE from this STRESS!

wohoo!

need enjoy these sickening exams...

soo paper ended early...

soo waited for mummy...

she end school at 2.30pm...

soo slack at school till 4.30...

before we got my ASSES moving...

soo yea...

went home...

HOME SWEET HOME..

its about LOVE..

mummy i love you can?

i really do love you...

please love me!!

please!!

begging you!!

bleahs...

2008-09-12T00:09:00.002+08:00

today go...

tomorrow come...

every single day...

it will repeat itself...

comparing it with me...

its exactly the same...

i did the same thing..

over and over again...

its clear now...

i get it all...

if only i had known it...

if only i did realised it earlier..

its all about me...

i know...

its me...

blaming the past...

wont bring any good...

or even...

wont bring anything...

i know...

ure sick n tired of hearing me saying...

i wont hurt you again...

i wont make you angry again...

however...

i just cant fullfill these sentence...

these phrase...

theses words...

stupid of me...

to be spitting out words like that...

if i cant fullfill it...

i really mean it when i say it...

but why?

why i keep hurting you?

why?

i just cant understand myself right now...

i understand that

right now...

for you to trust guyz...

is completely difficult...

after what you had gone through...

in youre past...

maybe boys are always the same..

i wont be angry wif you...

if you think that way towards me...

i know...

theres still doubts in you towards me...

to trust guyz...

is already difficult...

how about trusting me?

worst...

its okey...

im fine wif it...

im good...

see ((:

all of these takes time...

2008-09-09T23:06:00.002+08:00

it went smoothly today...

i love it..

as usual..

start my day with mummy...

we are late today..

but however..

we manage to get to ISH in time for the pledge..

well..

after that..

its N prelim paper...

aiyer...

luckily its not hard like what i expected...

somehow...

i feel that i could pass ((:

hehe...

both papers ended at around 12.40pm...

soo yea...

waited for mummy..

she ends at 1.30pm...

waited n waited...

DING DONG!!!

the sound of dimissal...

met mummy at foyer...

i send her to bus-stop...

shes going to ana's house...

soo yea...

send her till there only...

i tot of sending her to ana's haus....

but sorry...

my body is weak...

whether is very hot...

and also im not feeling well lately...

after she went off...

i sat at the bus-stop for quiet sometimes...

or i can say...

a very very long time...

my body are tired to move...

reached home...

str8 away went to bed...

soo tired...

and i woke up...

recieve quite a number of msges from mummy...

sorry i didnt reply it earlier...

i was sleeping...

and i got to know...

nobody taking her lil brother home from school...

what the?

soo i decide to take him home from school...

thought of bringing him to my house...

to break fast...

but mummy's parents ask to meet them at their home...

soo send him back...

and and and...

guess what?

i got ride from mummy's parents...

they send me home ((:

thankiu alot...

appreciate it alot...

well...

just getting to know them better though...

hehe...

then...

after breaking fast...

i bath all...

and went out to mummy's blk to study..

soo met mummy awhile...

dhen she went home...

shes tired...

soo yea...

thats for today...

HAPPY!

weeheee....!

2008-09-04T00:43:00.005+08:00

cant get myself into bed...

didnt slept for 4days now...

add today...

its gona be 5days...

something kept bothering me...

but im not sure what is it...

kept running in my mind...

but its juz not clear for me to see it all..

i have been missing mummy lately...

we have not been meeting each other

for quite some times...

i dont want our relationship to get..

further and further apart...

im glad that mummy had confessed

now i know what mummy dislike about me..

really seek for your fullest understanding...

im trying to change...

i do sound harsh at times...

but i didnt realised it..

i get it all now mummy...

i gave myself the whole night yesterday...

and i know...

what i really want in my life...

like you said...

dont let breakoff be the solution...

and i wont...

now...

all i ever wanted is...

really...

to be with you...

i doesnt matter now..

what people say...

i wont give a damn about it...

all i know is that i want you...

its mummy...

who have been with me all these while...

who i could shed my tears with...

who i can turn to whenever im down..

who cares about me..

mummy is the only one...

that i could trust right now...

mummy have been there for me..

EVERYTIME..

but im have been bad towards mummy all these while...

mummy...

kalau mummy da tk tahan ngan sikap daddy...

mummy blang daddy tau...

daddy tau...

daddy dah berkali-kali sakit kn hati mummy...

daddy dah puas sakitkn hati mummy...

daddy dah tknk mummy disakiti...

sejak mummy ngan daddy...

daddy tk pernah bagi mummy ketenangan...

mummy tk pernah happy...

daddy da sedar nih smue mummy...

daddy menyesal...

daddy menyesal berkelakuan bergituk

terhadap mummy...

mummy baik kepade daddy...

tapi mummy cume dapat...

sakitan hati je...

daddy da tknk tengok mummy sedih lagik...

daddy cube berubah...

tapi kadang2...

daddy tk boleh...

daddy tk tau kenape...

tapi...

hanya satu bende yang daddy

nak mummy tau...

yang daddy benar2 cintekn mummy...

kadang2...

bile daddy sendiri...

daddy terfikir2 aper yg akan terjadi

bile mummy daddy berpisah...

setakat berfikir je...

boleh buat daddy nnges...

daddy tk tau mcm mnr nk berkate...

tapi yang daddy tau...

daddy tk sanggop tinggalkn mummy...

daddy tk tau macam mnr hidop daddy tanpa mummy...

daddy nk mummy tau...

yang mummy nih bererti kepade daddy...

mummy adalah hidop daddy...

)':

mummy...

mummy jgn sakali tinggalkn daddy..

please?

daddy tk sanggop...

daddy tk sanggop nk jalankn hidop

daddy tanpa mummy...

daddy harap...

mummy pon bergituk kat daddy...

jangan tinggalkn daddy please...

daddy tk kesa mummy buat aper2...

tetapi...

jangan sampai mummy tinggalkn daddy...

2008-09-03T00:26:00.002+08:00

in this silent night...

talking things out...

i had let it all out what i have to say..

today's conversation..

is something unusual...

right at this moment...

im shivering..

im scared...

with all thats to come..

i know..

i hv been bad...

i realised it all now...

im a bad.. really bad...

if theres a point of time..

that tolerating my attitude

is a pain in the ass...

please tell me soo...

coz enough is enough...

im aint hurting you anymore further...

right now...

my mind is completely lost..

got no aim in life...

this is my huge downfall in life...

still shivering while typing all these...

why did have the courage to still

tolerate me?

while others would have left me earlier...

why are you going so far...

juz for me?

im not the person you are searching for..

frankly speaking...

i really not the type of guy youre searching...

i must admit...

i do love you...

but sometimes...

as in always...

took you for granted...

i have never satisfied you

wit all my doings...

all i did was giving you the pain in the world...

i realised who i am now...

im not good for you syg...

think back...

i think you got the wrong guyz...

maybe u were blind for accepting me...

im afraid that u will be dissapointed 1 day...

theres many more guys better than who i am...

nurul suaidah...

please give a thought if u really wan me...

i dont mind u were in some1 else hand..

but i wan that some1 to be better than me...

i really wish that you could find that person...

silent tears....

2008-08-31T00:09:00.002+08:00

saturday was ok..

start off my day in school..

mock test for maths...

its quite hard though..

after that..

went wif sec5 friends..

go smoke...

dhen noon..

i went home...

at home was bored...

soo i went out..

met my friend..

boi jubz! hehe..

soo long nvr see you seh..

u still got me boi...

although ure in hostal...

kita bruther mahx!

haha..

go his house...

buy cigg...

after soo long...

i started to buy cigg agn...

cau cee bye la me...

dhen baby went town...

wif his brother(S)

soo juz let her be...

i dont wanna say anything right...

dhen at night...

go yewtee...

friends jio me play badminton...

okey la...

aku n my kakilang UNDEFEATED horx..

we PRO..

ceh bah!

at 10..

went slacking..

open table ak...

not beer...

but cigg ak...

and guyz...

sorry ak juz nw..

aku come...

aku face like ceebye...

attitude also like ceebye...

aku du lan la horx...

aku come...

all ask where ure gal...

alermak u all ak...

si bei make aku more du lan...

sorry la horx...

yanzhi ak...

u still can ask aku that question?

if u aku...

i will know what to answer right?

alermak..

soo the obvious sio...

but then...

hack care only...

aku dont even wan to think abt it...

now aku wif u all..

aku must enjoy la horx...

dun wan anything else

to bother me...

and and thanks to fahmy...

yea i know...

there must be a trust...

but trust must slowly built...

soo yea...

i trust your words ehk fahmy...

dont say i dont...

hopefully ak...

oh akak!!!

akak...

what happen to you seh...

why suddenly like thys?

anything happen wif you n a'an?

alermak...

thanks la you!!

iloveyou akak...

ure always there to give me advises...

give me strength..

ure the best...

ure LOVED!!!

but sometimes ehk akak...

adik kn...

dont know whats gone through me..

sumtimes..

my emotion..

my egoness..

took over my mind...

and thats when i start to be SHYT!

thats when i fall into the ground

very HARD...

but akak is there for me...

i know that kak...

kakak...

now i hate to admit it..

but i dont wan to say it out...

you know everyone got feelings mahx...

soo yea...

i dont wanna let it OUT!!!

omg!

now whats gone through me?

im such a fucker sia...

i hate it...

but nvm...

let it be in me...

like people all say...

silent cries...

i know myself best when im really angry...

and i hate to show to any1 wif my anger...

soo please ehk people...

THINK!

bubye la all...

i lazy talk...

or im just frustrated?

cau ceebye la harris...

bye la ehk...

i dont wan talk!

2008-08-24T22:19:00.002+08:00

okey... SHIT!

i broke it!!

oh this stupid attitude of mine!!

NO NO NO!

it shudnt be this way!

whats done is done...

theres no turning back in time...

but i just cant accept the fact...

its nearly 4 weeks...

w/o probs...

and guessed what?!?!

bcoz of me!

yea bcoz of me!!

probs rose...

its not that i want it to happen...

btw me and bby...

thats not meant to be!!

oh god!!

help us through...

its ripping me apart...

everything in my life...

aint going like how i expect it to go...

felt like everything going aginist me!!

shyt shyt shyt!!

im hating this...

did i really did something wrong...

to get all this punishment?

did i?

maybe i did sumthink wrong...

but i just dunno why...

just need to bear wif it...

maybe its just something...

to test me out i guess?

ouh hack care...

patience harris...

patience....

and and...

for babygirl....

well...

i do know u hurt the most...

im just who i am...

aint changing for the better...

i kept saying words that...

im aint gona hurt u again...

but...

the past just kept repeating itself...

problems rises...

seriously...

i hate the way i am...

im the cause of it to happen...

today was shyt i tell you...shyt...

i dont like it...

keeping my problems to myself...

end up hurting some1 else...

the reason that i dont wan to tell you abt my problems...

because...

i dont wan to make u worry...

although i did told u some of my probs...

but i say it in a normal tone...

soo that it wont be soo obvious...

and so that...

u wont get yourself worried and all...

but i get it now...

my doings were wrong...

i hurted u deeply...

haizz...

sorry...

2008-08-24T20:46:00.004+08:00

today?

was HELL not OK!

early morning woke up...

went to madrasah..

i know i came late..

but could you nt scold me

like 1 fking kind?

if 1 teacher is fine...

but how many teachers wan scold me?

2? 3? 4?

aku bukan budak2 lagik ehk...

dhen mood swing...

thats for sure...

after madrasah...

i went home...

give friends some calls..

asking back for money right...

wow...

all say no money..

ouh...

when u guyz need money at

that point of time...

all search for me...

but bile nk bayar alek...

satu2 pukimak nye sial...

padahal korg last thursday baru gaji...

cb la korg...

lepas aku dpt alek duit...

korg2

jgn nk harap nk pinjam duit dari aku la ehk...

psl korg kwn aku pinjam...

abeh skrg aper aku dpt?

kalo masi nk bubble lagik?

korang smue bleh pergi la k?

aku nk binget...

kasi muke...

pijak kepale...

puki korg...

jangan sampai aku jalan tangan suda...

and korg2 kwn aku nih ehk...

aku sedar la...

aku kat skola mnr ader rapat ngan korg...

beh...

tkya nk buat aku gini pe...

korg nk ckp aku besarkn nonok?

kalo korg ader pompan...

korg pon besarkn nonok jugak pe...

psl korg tkder...

korg bleh ckp mcm gituk...

kalo tk suke...

boleh ckp depan muke aku kn?

korg nk ckp blakang aku nih smue buat pe?

kalo korg jantan...

sini...

muntahkn aper korg nk ckp depan aku..

gi mampos ehk...

aku boleh hidop mati sorg2 la...

and baek punye ehk fams...

nk layan mcm tknk layan...

ckp sikit da tk suke...

pekik2...

wth siak....

buat nih salah...

buat tuu salah...

abeh nk buat aper lagik?

satu2 kluar boleh..

adik kat sini...

nk kluar jap...

tk bleh?

come on la...

be reasonable...

i tried to hide all my probs within myself...

but sometimes...

it hard..

and i need to let it out...

i had may look happy...

but actually...

im slowly dying inside...

hiding my probs thinking that..

i wont hurt any1 around me...

but instead...

i hurt some1 alot that i expected...

my one n only bby...

i knew shes angry wif me...

thats for sure...

i kept all my probs...

w/o u knowing it...

i dont wan you to b worrying abt me...

this few days...

i admit..

i not being myself...

thats something i cant deny...

i tried to cntrol my patience...

my angry...

my ego...

my emo...

but i juz cant manage to pull through it...

i just fall into the ground...

helplessly...

i thought...

i could have u understanding me...

but sometimes you cant...

im not angry wif you...

that you cant understand me...

well i must admit...

its bcoz of my attitude

which made you...

nt to understand me...

i guess...

by doing this...

im making bby..

more sadden...

everytime...

i made you sad...

i do felt this sense of regret..

i really do...

right now...

to capture back your trust...

will take sometime...

for you to forgive me for my

wrong doing...

do takes sometime...

i know its hard for you...

but somehow...

ure not the cause of it...

i the reason that all of this is happening..

is all bcoz of me...

like u said...

sorry, please

is what u heard from me always...

well...

words is just words...

action speak greater then words...

idk what else i could do now...

to make you know...

that i really regret doing all this...

i really wish to stop this..

nonsense of mine...

and continue wif the normal US...

i really do...

idaris

2008-08-20T17:22:00.002+08:00

well im tired...

the day went smoothly...

no problems today..

oh im happy wit that...

today is late day...

as usual...

went wit school wit bby..

but why ak?

the bitches today...

like soo kind to me?

ask me this ask me that...

its like soo the different..

want something from me or what?

but i hackcare...

first period was english..

did preparation for the CLAP

but i guessed...

my group wont complte it...

my group is the worst...

laugh loudly..

but no work done...

if only i am serious...

they all get serious...

wtf seh u all...

wan depend on me?

well..

after english lesson...

it was math...

we gt bck our class test paper...

for i jusr pass...

wth?

why express paper so hard?

soo not N lvl standard ...

its like O stnandard..

well i know my standings now...

still got tym for me...

soo...

after maths..

its recess time!!

when its recess...

its time to meet BABY!!!

oh baby..

ure having a bad day...

ure eyes are in pain...

not eating during recess too...

well...

bby is suffering..

soo sad...

and so..

recess over...

baby accompanied me to my class...

took my things for MT

and dhen send baby back to her class...

during MT lesson...

teacher write something on the board...

about imbuhan la kn...

dhen tibe2 got a word..

sumthing SUAI...

dhen i smile at myself..

and shouted EH ADER SUAI!!

haha...

cikgu dhen quickly replied me seh...

EH BUKAN SUAIDAH EHK...

muahaha...

suke la kn...

dhen after that...

she came to me...

looked at my foolscap paper...

like soo the normal thing to do eh?

like the foolscap paper is yous gituk..

come my desk...

dhen just take my foolscap

and look at what i had written...

soo after MT..

its MR BORING lesson...

well..

my attiude during his lesson wasnt bad...

i kept quiet almost all the tym...

but at later part...

i slept...

and he woke me up...

and again the whole class was looking at me...

wth?

i sleep awhile also wrong ak?

wan stare me for whad?

dhen

DING DONG DING DONG!!

school bell rang...

but teacher still teaching...

wth...

soo dimissed abit late...

packed my beg..

ran to baby's class...

i looked...

nobody here...

i thought she left me oledi...

soo i went to the foyer...

otw there..

i saw her...

she said she was finding for me...

but then...

i explained to her why im late...

soo since her eyes are in pain...

she decided to go home str8...

soo i accompanied her home...

from the look of it...

i know shes hurting...

after sending her home...

i went home too...

lazy to go back to school for lesson...

its been soo many times that i ran away

from PE!!

aiyo...

reached home...

change to house clothes...

online and gave her a call...

dhen i online...

she also online...

but still im talking to her la kn...

after that..

i ate wif my father...

and know what?!?

my lil bro havent reached home yet...

and its already 3+

father was like soo curious...

in an angry tone...

but im normal la kn...

im also like my lil bro last time..

but im worst than him..

soo no point getting all tense up..

when im also like him...'

dhen...

after eating...

chat wif baby at msn....

and she told me to accompany her to bangkit...

she need to buy new contact lenses...

maybe because of the contact lenses...

her eyes is in pain...

soo around 3.40..

met up wif baby at pending lrt...

as she dont wan to trouble me to go to her voiddeck...

soo yea...

met up wif her at pending lrt...

went to bangkit wif her...

brought her contact lenses and send her back...

and my legs were soo tired...

and everytime i take a step...

it hurts...

but i dont hack care...

what i care is that...

im wif baby...

dhen when crossing the traffic light...

TERNAIK SIOL!!!

baby know i know best la kn...

haha then went to BP CC for awhile...

did some business there....

hahax...

going into the CC was like a maze...

everywhere was like a DEAD END...

but we made it out safe n sound...

thanks to me la kn...

hehe...

then send her back...

today..

2 times outside your house la kn..

you know i know...

dhen after that...

went back home str8...

i was walking soo the damn slow...

hard to move...

tired n pain...

reached home was abg 4.45?

i think so la kn...

then called bby to tell her that

i reached home oledi...

soo she wont be soo worried

about my whereabout...

then...

i used my cuzzin laptop...

soo that i could lie on the bed...

body is weak...

soo yea ...

im here blogging...

chatting wif my baby..

only her ehk...

nobody else...

we are talking about the past..

about how we met each other...

soo cute lar kn...

we both... ((:

soo yea thats it for today...

i spend most of my time wif bby...

my one and only..

my everything...

till then...

i will be posting more...

bubbye to all readers...

idaris

2008-08-18T22:45:00.003+08:00

konnichiwa!!

oh...

hows my NEW BLOGSKIN??

took a 2hours for me to get it done...

well...

how issit?

well..

its been 5 days since i last update my blog..

i think i shud sit down...

and write something...

past few days are OKEY...

not muching HAPPENINGS...

last thursday and friday..

i was dismissed early...

due to N prelim...

took english and social studies...

English paper 2 was HARD

i dont even know what i am reading...

didnt understand the whole passage...

dont even know what it wants...

soo im prepared to get A BIG FAT ZERO for papaer 2...

well...the paper 1 is good...

i think i can do well in paper 1

but not paper 2...

for social studies...

oh... last minute revision...

no notes to study...

the night b4 the test...

i had to copy the whole notes from adam...

last whole week...

baby were buzy...

ii were buzy...

both revising for exams...

both wanting the best result...

for our own good of cause...

soo really dont have time..

for each other...

but we made time to meet

at night...

hehe... im glad...

soo saturday...

whole day at home...

total of boredom w/o baby around me...

and for sunday...

which is yesterday..

well...

i did went out...

got kenduri at my grandma haus...

at teck whye...

reach there was around 6.50pm...

went home was around 11pm?

soo the late you know!

thought that i wouldnt get to talk to bby...

or chat wif bby...

but...

i did...

im HAPPY!!!

soo lets talk about today...

its such a wonderful day...

to start my day wif my baby...

went school wf her as usual...

class were boring...

always the same..

worst more...

looking at those faces...

make me SICK!

hate that class...

how i wish i wasnt in class 4ip...

rather be in other class which i felt...

more appreciated with...

guessed what?

i made a teacher angry like FK!

teacher you BORING!!!

heard that YOU BORING!!!

throw things?

kick the chair?

im not afraid at all...

worst more...

im laughing at you all the way...

no words of yours gona go through my head...

coz i dont wan to listen to

those lectures of yours..

coz youre BORING!!

but if ever you lay a hand on me..

be sure to get a punch at your face!

from 12.30pm onwards...

no teaecher in class...

oh baby..

if you had told me that u left school at 2...

i had go out wif you already seh...

wth seh you...

dumbontot btol...

soo after dismissal..

i went to blk 249..

baby waiting for me there...

as soon as i reached ...

baby had to accompany nurul to school

for the financial form i guess...

not sure about it...

soo...

yea...

sat that wif sherhan...

and surain...

but not long...

baby came...

and we both went off...

baby going to meet her cousin at bt batok..

soo i went to send her there...

reach bt batok already...

her cussin wasnt there yet..

luckily i didnt leave you at the mrt platform la kn...

if not ure alone...

soo sat there...

chit chat wif baby jap...

while waiting...

few mins..

her cuzzin came...

soo i guessed...

its time for our seperate ways...

her cuzzin brought many of her friends...

all girls...

i was there...

told myself...

WTFF!!!

soo i left baby wif a kiss..

i get going in a hurry la kn...

on the platform..

i saw baby goin into westmall... ((:

after i left baby...

went str8 home..

im lazy to go slacking around all that...

tired you see...

reached home...

luckily i used my own key...

and i get to know that...

baby's house key was wif me...

gave a msg to remind her that

her key is wif me...

soo she wont be soo the KANCONG

when she realised that her key was gone...

then then...

baby called me...

saying that shes gona go home alone...

father not fetching her...

she told me to accompany her home..

soo yea...

left house around 6.30 gituk...

and when i reached bp interchange...

where i was suppose to meet her...

she gave me a msg tell that..

she just LEFT the house...

soo...

i just sat at the interchange...

waited for her to reach...

waited for her...

about 1hr+...

but i dont mind...

waiting for her is worth while...

spending time wif her...

is best thing that i ever wanted...

even for a short time...

i cherish it baby... ((:

after she reached...

send her back home...

its was drizzling...

soo went under voiddeck...

oh bby...

i get more kisses than you today...

im glad((:

its been a long tym since i got one...

soo here i am...

blogging here...

well...

its getting late now...

and elder bro are nagging at me..

asking me to stop playing the laptop..

as he wan to go to sleep...

soo i guess i will end it here then...

once again...

baby...

i really miss you...

idaris

2008-08-13T00:14:00.006+08:00

Oh Bby...

i felt the same way like you do..

reached home...

SCOLDINGS N LECTURING is what i get...

could you family atleast ask nicely first?

rather then jumping into problems?

i know its late...

but..

i went out for a purpose...

WORST MORE!!!

i knocking the door...

pressing the bell..

many times...

you people just dont bother?

i didnt feel any sadness...

yet i felt happy...

you people sitting on the sofa..

in the LIVING SUMMORE

just hack care about me!

just say so if you DONT wan me

IN THE HOUSE...

coz..

when door is not yet open

for a long tym...

i already thought of meeting aiman

maybe SLEEP at his house...

better off than staying at home...

where i dont get the LOVE i wanted...

i do know that you parents are working...

for US...

but its just too much for me...

we aint spending time together...

like how we used too...

just tell me...

THIS YEAR FROM 1JAN TO 12AUG

did we even out for a family outside...

spending time of our own?

DID WE?

u said i dont know about time...

YES I DONT KNOW!

but then

DO YOU KNOW ABOUT TIME THEN?

giving LOVE that i wan...

i can just ask you to stop working...

i dont need money...

i can earned money myself...

only love from prnts that money cannot buy...

looking at other familys...

i felt SAD

this sadness that you will never know..

as you wont be knowing it

only if you read my blog you will know...

coz i wont let it out to you prntz!

MAMA u say i changed...

YES I DID CHANGE

CHANGE FOR THE WORST!

i know...

no nid say...

AMONG ALL YOUR SON...

WHO IS THE WORST?

ME!

i know its ME!

all its me!

u said that now...

i like hack caring you right ma?

if u dont hack care..

then your work...

i wouldnt be this way!

skrg!

AKU DA TK HERAN LAGIK!

kau nk bagi aku duit ke tak...

AKU TK KESA...

kalo kau ingat aku anak yang minta duit je..

PI JALAN SNR!

aku boleh keje sendiri...

KORG SMUE ANGGAP AKU SAPR KN?

sampai tknk bukak pintu smue...

PUKI KEPADA KORANG SMUE!

skrg...

aku pilih arah hidop aku sendiri...

mak bapak nk pilihkn?

sorry la sikit ehk...

kau gi fikir snr...

nnti bsok da tue...

kau nk ikot anak spr...

PILIH HARDI KE HARMAN KE HARIZAL..

jgn la ehk nk pilih aku...

aku ANAK JANTAN YANG SIAL!

yang byk bagi korg masalah!

skrg...

korang smue ckp la aper korg nk ckp psl aku...

aku da tk kesa lagik la...

gi MAMPOS!

AK!

aku malas nk ckp lagik!

KORANG KORANG KORANG

BOLEH JALAN BO LAN

NBCB

2008-08-12T23:53:00.002+08:00

today was "OK"

lesson went on smoothly...

the class are not that noisy...

but still...

the same old people...

keep making noise...

although they are far apart...

soo the DUMB ASS...

i wasnt that noisy today...

paid attention during lesson time...

no time for playing anymore...

time to be serious

Exams around the corner...

Today spent lil time wif baby...

only when walking to school..

and during recess...

after school...

i didnt even get to see her FACE..

she already went off...

soo...

i went out..

slack till 5pm...

thought of going home sooner...

but raining...

soo...

ya, stayed under voiddeck awhile...

reached home was around 5.30pm...

rest awhile...

then i went out to study...

went to TC but then...

aiman called me to meet him

for some reason...

around 7.30pm...

went to DARKSIDE...

they played soccer...

and so..

i did joined them awhile...

after studying my work...

SOON..

unexpected scene came...

FCUKING POLICE!

u dont think u play shirt i dont know horx!

police in gangs but want act big?

ure just a NS guy...

wait till i caught you RED-HANDED

S.O.A.B!

went to zhenghua police station...

and blah blah blah...

dont wish to talk about it anymore

coz its FCUK SHYT!

2008-08-10T05:57:00.002+08:00

its early 6am...

yet im still awake...

i cant go sleep...

and idk why...

house is soo the peaceful

once every1 is asleep...

once woke up..

NOISY LIKE HELL!

soo now...

im alone...

hoping for that somebody...

that special some1...

whom i called BABY...

its you who im craving for right nw...

i didnt heard you voice last night...

where have you been?

i just wish that youre alright there...

been thinking of you lately..

and wondering too...

about how u played a huge part..

in my life now...

i knew that i did changed...

not alot...

but a lil will do...

its becoz of you...

its not that i wanna change...

but instead...

you changed me...

a girl like you...

is impossible to find...

u made my life...

right now...

im in need of you bby...

oh ily!

idaris

2008-08-08T00:53:00.004+08:00

its gona be 1am soon...

yet in still awake...

i cant sleep...

thinking of you bby...

i hadnt heard your voice...

since i left you wif your adik...

im not sure youre at home or outside...

coz right now...

its hard for you to contact me...

yes thats for sure...

are you asleep or still

wondering about around the streets...

im worried...

worried if anything happened to you...

tried contacting you...

yet theres no respond given...

im here...

hoping that you are safe at home...

sleeping silently...

i really hope so...

without me having handphone...

its different to controll...

im not used without having handphone...

with my handphone...

its easy for you to contact me...

and easy for me to contact you too...

im in need of you to tell me where you are...

FIKIRAN SIOL AKU NBCB!

2008-08-06T22:07:00.004+08:00

helo!

yesterday...

5/8/08

the day turned out to be fine...

till after recess...

oh i been scolded for no reason?

wad the hell!!

to get yelled & accused for nothing?

did you teachers even have some thoughts of it?

monday i didnt came school...

and tuesday i returned...

and get all this scoldings?

oh...HELL YEA!

im happy...

MS TAN SS...

you asked for a change of seat

w/o me knowing...

and w/o me accepting the seating rearrangement...

maybe i know why it is me?

everytime...

i got this...

teachers aiming me..

yea i know it all...

right nw..

the 4ip...

i dont really act it as my own class...

really i dont what i wanted...

think twice of the student well being...

do you think they will study?

if they are not happy?

yes i did argue back...

teachers are teachers...

they are always the same...

they wont be at my side...

i had lost trust on you teachers...

no point of me...

asking help from brats like you teachers..

i wan a change of class...

i hate the place where i am now...

in 4ip...

i starting to hate people by people...

MS TAN SH why didnt you send me down...

why dont you hung and tan dont wan to talk

at general office?

wif MDM HENG AND CHUI?

wtf!

if im beyond controll..

send me down...

i told you to send me down..

but why didnt you?

why?

i dont need anymore of your explaination...

coz i dont even wanna care listening to it...

hate me all you want...

coz i dont even bother if u cared abt me or nt...

call the police?

call la...

im not scared

i hate you all!

u son/daughter of bitches!

if i didnt want to study during ure lesson...

let me be...

i dont feel like studying...

looking at ure FKING faces...

you to all classmates...

guessed what?

since you hate me soo much...

but bother talking behind my back?

say it infront of me!

say that you hate me!

coz now im hating all of you!

seriously...

its better that i dont contribute anything...

i hate it...

after school...

friends find problems wif me...

omg!

i hate tuesday!

the days it totally spoilt!

i hate it!

FCUK YOU ALL!!

from today...

dont u fckers in my class talk to me...

coz ure just making me to hate you more...

but luckily...

i got someone...

that someone whom made me happy...

everyday...

shes the one that brightened me up...

shes my cure to everything...

thanks bby...

around 4pm...

met bby under her void deck...

fetching her to meet her cousin...

about something...

soo yea...

send her till bukit batok...

dhen she went wif her cuzzin...

and i went back...

i was soo stressed up...

that i went to bukit panjang park...

yea...

i was alone there....

till 9+pm...

i got back home...

sitting alone...

admiring the nature....

peace my mind...

without any1 there....

i silently healed myself...

if what happened on tuesday...

oh thats for now...

i shall update more later...

3post more... aiyoyo...

tired la kn!

bubbye!

takecarez!

idaris

2008-08-03T14:36:00.002+08:00

konnichiwa!

oh sry for the late post!

reached home late...

exactly midnight..

i stepped into the house...

no time for me to update...

as im tired & sleepy..

and oh about yesterday..

ITS MUSICAL!!

its hell lot of fun!

met baby at lot1...

at 5.15pm...

she look beautiful!

went to causeway to eat...

PIZZA! PIZZA! PIZZA!

oh..

you FED me..

me FED you..

i missed it alot!

after that..

we proceed to RP,republic poly

most of them are already there..

its packed!

we Qed up...

Everybody are dressed

in their beautiful costume!

But among the all the stars

theres only 1 SHINNING STAR..

oh its YOU BABY!

the performance are GREAT!

no words could describe it..

only those who attend...

will know...

well it just soo SUPERB!

i had fun wif BBY today...

im glad that had fun too...

THESE TIMES ARE REMEMBERED

idaris

2008-08-02T09:22:00.007+08:00

yesterday

was oh...

good (:

met bby early in the morning..

went school wit her..

and i was taking N level prelim for MT

the paper 1 was okey la..

not that difficult...

but the paper 2 was like SHYT!

i dont know how to say...

but I HATE MOTHER TONGUE!!!

after school...

waited for bby...

as she had to finish up the notice board...

for some reason...

around 2+pm...

we left the school...

headed to a bus-stop...

bby was goin to ana house...

soo fetch her till bus-stop...

and oh BABY!!!

i told bby not to play wif FIRE!!!

see what happen?

dont wan to listen to me..

after she went off...

left me and my dearest KIKI!!

went his house for awhile..

dhen went to my house after that...

hes such a dumbASS!!!

came my house and SLEEP!

thats his job...

around 6.30pm...

i went out to zhenghua CC...

end up

not playing soccer...

WTF?

but all slacked there...

my mood totally swing...

i didnt get my money back!

i was controlling my patience...

i really need that money!

i really do..

feels like lying my fist to those...

who owes me money...

but all i can say is...

thankyou to bby...

i called her...

shes the only person...

who i can rely on when im angry...

shes the one who brightened me up...

bby i love you!!

shes the one...

who prevent me from doing all these stupid stuffs

im changed because of bby...

i dont know how to repay you...

see bby...

wif you around...

im always happy...

iloveyousoomuch!!!

but the night...

turned bad..

after each n everyone had gone home...

my friends are having problems...

syam...

adam coil...

but seriously...

to my beloved brother...

coil...

ever since we went...

i had treated you as my own elder brother...

although we argue around...

but yet...we are happy as ever...

this coming monday...

is ure final court...

im worried for you...

i dont wan any friends of mine

to go into prison...

you know that?

yesterday we talked...

i was about to cry...

when u said that FOR SURE AKU MASUK NYE LA...

i felt sad...

i had enough already...

thinking of you...

makes me think of my old brothers...

going in the prison...

and i dont wan to lose a brother like you...

just to let you know...

im always here for you...

although i know...

im not much of a use...

huge sum of money is needed...

but for sure...

because of you...

i will take care of those you asked me too...

if really ure going in...

be ready to see me...

coz i will always go and see you...

i wont forget you...

for all the things you had done...

JIWE BROTHER!

CYCLONE!

baju tetap baju...

jiwe tetap jiwe..

brother tetap brother...

for now...

im really stressed up...

my sis izfa...

also having problems...

sorry akak...

that im nt there for you...

im really sorry...

ii gave you a late call...

u called me at 1.30am while im asleep..

but 4.50am..

i woke up and i was shocked to see

you called me...

i wasnt there for you...

gave you a called...

u didnt picked up...

but soon...

u called me back...

we talked till 5.50am...

akak...

please dont slash yourself...

for once...please dont...

listen to me for once?

will you akak...

if really u gona slash yourself...

me and you...

together go to SV...

i gona FCUK them upside down...

adik dont wan to see you suffer...

please kak...

i had never see you like this before...

i dont like it...

i do understand your feelings..

like how you understand mine...

akak...

what if u slashed and cut your vein?

im gona be mad at myself...

because i wasnt there...

to stop you from doing so..

i felt bad and guilty kak...

please...

theres still other way...

to pull through those pain of yours...

i really dont wan to lose you akak...

i really dont!

i treated you as my own kakak...

if really...u think...

that adik...means nothing to you...

please ...

if u wan slash...

slash infront of me

and slash me too...

if really im nothink to you...

w/o akak...

only memories of US is left...

theres still more memories of US to come...

iloveyou kak...

i dont do things that will make me lose you...

see people..

i had many problems...

regarding my friends...

each of you...

means alot to me..

losing you guyz...

is just pain to go through...

please...

to all my friends...

i dont wan to lose you all...

for now....

right at still momment..

im STRESSED UP!

2008-07-30T22:51:00.002+08:00

OH BABES & HUNKS

know what?

the endless war

seem too peace once it ended..

i love the way it is now..

everything seem beautiful...

sure it is...

how would our life be?

w/o any fights and arguements?

it would be great right bby? right?

oh how can i imagine it will be true?

oh but please...

make it true...

but for now...

forget abt the past..

lets look forward for tomorrow..

hoping that..

everything would go smoothly...

some times..

times aint our side...

problems burst out from nowhere..

flying in the air...

trying to find a weak person

to be their victims...

thats what they would do...

we must be alert and ready

at all tyms...

to prevent us from getting caught

off guard...

today was good...((:

no problems faced...

can we carry on like thys?

with no problems?

i wish we could bby...

i wish we could..

we had faced many in our past...

its just a a learning journey for us..

okey today was fun actually...

early morning...

i was late...

met up wif bby ar pending lrt...

i she reached and not long after..

i came...

i felt angry at myself too..

as i let my bbygirl...

waited for me..

oh bby...im sorry alright...

heading to nurul's block..

dhen proceed to TC

dhen went into the school...

oh today we aint late lar bby ((:

reached school...thought of going canteen...

but it seems that there aint much time left..

soo str8 we went to ISH..

oh...thats bad..

thats bad...

im sorry bby...

i let you saw my other side...

early morning...

i had raise my fist to someone...

i have too..

its nt that i wan it..

but i just have too...

im soo sorry bbby..

and oh oh..

im hot hot...!!

panas!!

then went the 4Es are going bck to class..

i was still sitting on the floor...

oh nadzirah...

i was like who was that?

touched my head...

((:

the lesson today..

was abit boring...

especially...

MATHS!!

i hate it..

seriously, i hate it...

but just now i had to pay attention..

KOH teaching us something new...

its abit confusion at first...

but slowly..

i did understand...

and somehow..

it look easy...((:

and soo... the BELL RANG!!

went to canteen...

to buy food..

i tried calling bby..

she didnt pickup the phone..

dhen met her at the last stall...

coincidence right?

and i ask..

bby i call you..

you didnt picked up..

and still u can say..

OH EH?

haha...

thats funny!

dhen spent my recess time wif bby...

soo went back class..

oh mood change...

coz dont feel like studying...

lazy...

the bell had rang!!!

all rushing out to go home...

i called bby...

shes outside wif nurul...

kentot eh bby...

u smoked w/o me!!

finding her was hard though...

she kept moving around...

im like following her tail!

dhen found her...

and at 2.20pm..

i gtg...

still got lesson to attend to...

oh shyt YOU TEACHER!!

i cant run my 2.4km...

what the hell...

im ready you know..

and there you say..

harris you cant run today...

if i know i wont be coming for the PE...

dhen after that...i went to outside library...

waited for bby...

she got library stuff to do...

CCA... haha...

after that...

went to TC

oh...slack wif dan and of coz BBY...

oh its fun to be wif you...

dan showed us magic...

oh its funny though...

although...its abit..

stupid...haha...

hes a laughing stalk... ((:

joker!!

around 5.15pm..

went get our ASS up...

and moved...

went to bangkit...

as daniel wanted to buy many FOOD!

MEE DURIAN SWEETS

aiyoyo he...

after that...

we went seperate ways...

he went home..

and ii send bby bck...

oh..walk walk walk...

till reached her block there..

followed her up to her doorstep..

before i left...

oh...guessed what...

at TC

she was looking at her wallet for several times..

and she didnt even realised theres something in it..

oh GOD!

haha bby...

dhen...i called her after i left...

telling her about the thingy...

yea you know...

bbby was like...

HUH?WHATS WRONG WIF MY WALLET?

U WAIT..DONT PUT DOWN THE PHONE..

AND SUDDENLY..

OHH...OKEY!

haha...

shes just soo sweet...

iloveit...

and i headed str8 home...

i tired...

and having body cramps...

reach home...i ate...

bath...and then...

went to bed...

woke up at 9.50 just now...

and now im blogging...

i just finished chatting wif bby..

she has to shut down the comp...

its 12.08 now..

omg i took a long long time...

just to update this one post!!

stupid me!

and bby...

im sorry that i didnt gave you that thingy earlier..

coz we having some problems that day...

soo...

since now we are back to our old US..

i find it more easier to give you...

give you SECRETLY i meant...

soo hope u like it bby...

just a small gift from me to bby...

oh it just that..

I LOVE YOU!!

and to those who read..

thanks alot yaw!

TATA TITI TUTU

when aris & ida meets

IDARIS