Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Here goes again, i post...

Had some free time now...

Lets think of something to post now...

Erm... okey... i got it..

My days were a nightmare since my birthday...

Everything were in a mess...

Mood changes soo quickly..

Vain my anger to everybody...

I was ego even until today...

In school today, i was trying to pick a fight...

Actually i am the one whos trying to cause a fight...

i was really not myself...

Didnt believe?Try asking my buddy...

His name Ang Zheng Kai aka ah kai...

Could say, he was even mad at me...

Shouting the lungs out of me...

to who dares stare me...

Get it? im aint myself today...

Okey its getting rubbish soo... lets stop it..

lets open a topic call "WAR"

I have been fighting with baby ever since that day...

Just like Gaza & Israel...

We hadnt got peace between us...

She tend to get easily mad over something...

And me, being ego...

I was hard headed afterall...

Still fresh in my mind...

I was throwing my anger to her...

After what she had said...

And i know, its bad...

She must felt that heartache...

soo deep till i couldnt even imagined...

Forcing her to go home even when she didnt want to...

Pulling her arms...

Shouting at her in a public...

Such an embarassment to her as well as me...

Never i thought be such a holigan myself...

Never expect things to go this way too...

But it already did...

And today...

I was pissed off with her for going out of school...

Without even giving me a call...

Just a call will do to tell me everything...

I wasnt even listening to her explaination...

But instead...

Again, followed my egoness...

Its been straight days she been crying out...

To me.. or even herself silently..

Without me knowing...

Shes been crying her heart out...

Just to make this relastionship last...

And frankly speaking...

I didnt even realised it all...

After i given a deep thought to it...

Which is just a few minutes ago?

She had given her soul to me...

For me to take care of it...

But sometimes...

I just ignored it as though as it didnt even matters at all...

She been good to me all the time...

Just a misunderstanding that ruined us apart...

I always get the other way round with everything she says...

Im sorry...

I cant be understanding like how you wanted me too...

Im sorry for not being that person you wanted me to be...

Why couldnt i possiblely think about you?

Whenever we got mad with each other...

I just couldnt.. and i dont even know why...

You loved me from the bottom of your heart...

So do i...

After everything ended just now...

I felt free...

I felt as though as we just met a second ago...

Just like our first meeting?

Where we could laugh out loud like the world is just ours?

I remembered those times...

I felt happy until now...

I just couldnt explain it...

But im happy...

From what i could predict...

It going to take a long time for us to start a new "COLD WAR"...

or even... find peace till our last breathe?

I could see it through...

Right now...

All i could say is that...

I LOVE YOU LIKE I ALWAYS DO...

It wont be less & it wont stay...

My love is at its infinate...

Calculator cant calculate...

Ruler cant measures...

Only both hearts reads itself...

I love you..

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